This past week I went by her Facebook wall entry page, looked at her default, it was the pic of me taking her to dinner in Vegas for her birthday. I was stalking, it was clinging to the past and after I had this horrid crying session.

I had the urge to call her, text or email her and ask her to take it down, as it was and is a photo memory of my ( Read more... )

-thinking bout Kia, when will it stop, and be gone?

- tired of yelling at my kids, oldest daughter is failing, ugh.

- middle one doing much better.

- Too many inconsistencies in my life.

- tired of lonely in my life.

- have to get everyone ready now, ugh.

- I haven't seen Rango Yet!

- I went to work yesterday & it was fun! I still may not go today.

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Stalker part, saw this online today, she looks happy. I'm still smitten, will this ever be over, help me lord to let go and move on.


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In bed wishing I could talk to you, truth is that I wouldn't know what to say, talk about anyway. I think it's wishing I was years back, I don't know why this has been so long in me. Just would be great to talk.

I know she is a totally different person than I knew years ago, who in there right mind sits and thinks about laughing on a twin bed ( Read more... )

I miss u Kia, stuck in my head, know ur happy. I hope well.

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It's hard when people you care about block you out of their lives. I miss Kia alot, found out she's moving back East again, probably for good. I will mis her so much, been missing her all this time, I wonder if things could've been different.

I think of her shows that I didn't go to out of respect for her asking me to not contact her and not wanting ( Read more... )

I log on and got excited a sec at the new message for a new friend invite, she's got a cute pic, smile friendly and I'm thinking, who are you and how fun to find out, I msg back. I'm thinking friendly but not over the top, in my feverish state, I hit send. I get a non deliver msg, can't deliver as this journal is marked for deletion, I'm thing ack ( Read more... )

I found this post that said if people leave you, let them go they have chosen not to be a part of your story any longer. It's true just ouch sometimes when that's not what you want, wishing Kia a the happiness in the world in her move to the East Coast with her current gf. I hate when people block you out.

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I've been packing my truck, unloading my truck for the past week, every muscle is exhausted. I have to leave in 20 mins to meet the movers. I'm still not finished. I just want to collapse, but can't.

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Somewhere in this move their has been some progress made, however my eyes haven't seen it yet, just keep cleaning and packing I guess.

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