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the garden is transforming me
I've been sitting out by my little garden in the early mornings, drinking strong black coffee and writing by hand. This is a departure from my typical morning routine - roll out of bed, grab my phone, read the latest horrifying news, and feel hopeless.
Instead I've been enjoying the progress of the pea vines as their little tendrils magically find ( Read more... ) -
not a dream!
This morning as I was walking to work I saw a tiny doggie sniffing around on the sidewalk, right across the street from where I used to live at 18th & Alder. He looked like maybe some sort of chihuahua/terrier mix. I stopped to say hello and pet him for a bit. He sniffed my hand and seemed happy for the company. His tiny body was shaking -- it was ( Read more... ) -
might as well cook a goat
Dad had given me an hour. After that, he was going to come back and kill me. I wasn't sure why he didn't just kill me then -- it was kind of like one of those bad movies where the villain talks on and on and on about how he's going to kill the hero, giving the hero enough time to wiggle his hands out of the ropes and smack the villain down. Anyway ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
The other night I dreamed I was in the trauma unit of a hospital, in the office area, waiting for a counseling appointment. Through the office window I could see victims of terrible accidents being brought in, a woman with her head nearly severed, blood everywhere, many other grotesquely mangled bodies. It seemed to be the normal state of things. ( Read more... ) -
so much for composting
I feel stuck and frustrated. My response is to eat. I'm clinging to the branch of one tree while trying to reach another one, and I can't quite reach it without letting go of the one I've been clinging to. But I'm afraid if I let go I'll fall and splat all over the sidewalk. And now I'm not sure if the other tree is substantial enough to hold my ( Read more... ) -
compost
Last week I dreamed that I was looking at a huge pit filled with organic matter. There were some bodies in the pit as well. Everything should have been decaying, since it was all organic and it had been there for awhile, but apparently the pit was too full for anything to compost, so all of the bodies and everything else were just lying there. I ( Read more... ) -
Language and Perception
I have a friend who's training for a marathon, her first ever. Last year she did her first half-marathon, and also her first triathalon. I greatly admire her stamina and determination. In addition to training for these events, last year she completed her masters degree, got her certification in IMT, and took on many challenges at her new job ( Read more... ) -
geek
Tonight in my Sanskrit class, as we chanted the declension of the feminine noun dharana (8 cases [nominative, accusative, instrumental, dative, ablative, genitive, locative, vocative] * 3 numbers for each case [singular, dual, plural] = 24 endings), I got all teary over the sheer beauty of the language.
Sometimes I really like the way my brain ( Read more... ) -
nightmares and breakthroughs
Dream the first: Hosie and I were asleep in our bed. Suddenly, I became aware of a looming presence. I opened my eyes and M's dad was standing over the bed. He said "Hi there! I just wanted to come in and hang out with you lovely ladies." I was freaked. I tried to yell "Get out!" but my voice was just a whisper. And I couldn't wake Hosie up. I kept ( Read more... ) -
update
Within an hour of deciding to go out of town this weekend, I had arranged (a) a free car for the entire weekend (b) needed camping gear (c) kitty care. So we're going to leave tomorrow, camp out Friday and Sat evening, and come back on Sunday. Woo! I guess it's meant to be!