It has been way too long since I last wrote anything at all! I wanted to keep writing when I was in South Dakota, but I didn't have internet access, and the times I did, the computer was too messed up. I've been back from South Dakota for quite awhile now, and too many things have happened since then. I suppose it will all have to come out in ( Read more... )

I'm back in civilization, and it was a long couple of months for me in South Dakota! I had to get used to not watching television and used to living without Internet. So much happened up there, but it's too long for me to write about everything now. Let's just say that I'm really glad to be home, but it took me a few days to get readjusted to ( Read more... )

There must be something inside of me that feels a tug at my soul connecting me to my sovereign land of birth. It's been lying dormant all this time, ready and waiting to carry me 'home'. I never really thought about going home to live, until now. The prospects for work are minimal, but that doesn't sway my need for something deeper that is ( Read more... )

I never imgagined that after almost 32 years, I would be considering leaving all the comforts I know to possibly move back home to St. Francis, South Dakota. My place of birth is seriously like a third world country, being that it's an Indian Reservation. I come from a dog eat dog world, and yes, some of my people do still eat dog. You might see ( Read more... )

Another week and a half, and I'll be back in a different world. A world that I should have grown up in, yet depending on how I look at things, I was lucky enough to escape from. Was the price of losing my heritage and my sense of self and belonging worth it, for my mother to give her daughters a better life?? Sometimes I think so and other times ( Read more... )

I know I'm a dork, but I get hooked into watching stupid reality shows, and then I can't live without the suspense of 'what's going to happen next?' I recently got hooked on the third, or maybe it's the fourth, Average Joe season. I watched the last Average Joe get dumped, by a shallow supposedly beautiful woman, for another shallow but supposedly ( Read more... )

It feels extremely wierd to be back in Colorado after being gone for a couple of weeks. It was fun going on a roadtrip with my oldest son. He took lots of cool pictures with my digital camera and we stopped at all the 'viewpoints of interest' in Utah. I had forgotten how beautiful Utah was! I had forgotten what anything else outside of Colorado ( Read more... )

I've been wanting to go 'home' for a long time now. Mostly to find out who all my relatives are and to do some geneology research on my ancestors. Watching that stupid mini series Into the West, has also refueled my desire to know all that I can about my history and who I am ( Read more... )

Yesterday we went over to my mother's to hang out after Billie got off work. We picked up a rotisserie chicken for dinner and then Billie wanted an angel food cake. We didn't really have anything planned, we were just going to spend time with my family. We dropped off the chicken, and then went to Video One to rent some movies. I couldn't get ( Read more... )

Finally called about my kids today. I was so upset before, that I didn't want to say anything I'd regret. Especially since I have no control in the matter ( Read more... )