I can't feel at all

[falleneverdark]

I keep trying to keep myself from breaking down every 5 minutes. And the only way to do so, so far, has been to just shut off all feelings entirely. I can still react impulsively... but I can't think too long before something... anything... reminds me of him

Comments

[liber_loa]

I know you feel like a lot of this was your fault, like if you would have changed things or done things differently before it was too late he wouldn't be feeling the way he does right now, but somehow I get the feeling this would have happened anyway. When someone decides not even a year into a marriage that they don't want to be in it, and also seems to be frothing at the mouth to get out of it, it just makes me think that person wasn't ready to get married and it wouldn't have mattered if you were the most perfect wife on earth. Obviously it's still going to hurt for quite awhile, and there are things that you need to work on, but try to remember that. *HUG*

[safirerose]

Agreed. You've done the best you know how to do and honestly, with how quickly he's rushing this and how eager he seems to get out of the marriage without even giving you guys a chance to work it out, it just seems like this has more to do with him not being ready to be married than it does with you guys not getting along. Please don't let yourself take the blame for it happening.

[falleneverdark]

I know you're both probably right, but I def feel differently right now. Time is all I can use. Keep pushing...

[safirerose]

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us." - Helen Keller

[mseuphrates]

*hugs*

I'm so sorry you're going through this sweetie.

[falleneverdark]

Thanks. <3