I keep trying to keep myself from breaking down every 5 minutes. And the only way to do so, so far, has been to just shut off all feelings entirely. I can still react impulsively... but I can't think too long before something... anything... reminds me of him ( Read more... )

I'm trying as hard as I possibly can to just keep my head above water. Its wearing me out, and I don't know if I have the stamina for this ( Read more... )