Ok so what is the big fucking deal? Chris and I keep meeting with his lawyer for no reason. We are no closer to a divorce than we were before. There is no way in hell that asshole is going to have my kid. He was to see her and not pay childsupport. He is out of his fucking mind. I will not be fucked over. He also has a girl friend who is around my ( Read more... )

I HATE GUYS. THEY ALL SUCK!!!!

Well here I am again. I am not sure what to do.
I am not able to pay my bills. I am still having to live with friends. I am just pissy. I am moving out of here and I am moving in with another friend b/c this one has pissed me off. LONG story. Anyway...
I guess I will just be pissy.
Fuck it.

I have not posted in awhile. I am doing good. Still no divorce papers. Dr says Faith has some kind of breathing problems like asthma. I have made new friends. I met a guy, Ryan. He is such a sweetie.
I am trying to just be me and be happy.

AND I still have not gotten my divorce papers. Chris is being such an ass. He keeps asking for money for bills that he told me he would pay. UGH!

So far my birthday sucks ass. A friend was supposed to come a visit. She did not even call to say she wasn't coming. She still has not called/ returned my calls. Also I was supposed to get Faith today, but b/c I got pissed last night b/c Chris left Faith at his mom's last night instead of watching her himself... It is his weekend. So he told me ( Read more... )

I will finally get my divorce papers tomorrow. Last year I got them on my birthday. This year I will get them the day before. Oh fun ( Read more... )

I was ok about my divorce. I am not any more.
I am so sad a depressed that I cannot breathe.
I feel so alone. I hate this feeling.
Why can't I be happy? I am such a terrible person that I deserve to feel this way?
I miss Chris. I know it is stupid. I am pissed at myself b/c I miss him and yes, I still love him.
I hurt.

I was looking at some pictures of Faith. I think she is absolutely beautiful, but oh how I wish she would get some more hair.

Yes, I did get laid. Thank you carabelle_jenn for not telling anyone it was me. LOL ( Read more... )