Latest update: Divorce is back on (we're actually looking at annulment- less fuss, less muss). After school ends, and I finish this play, I'm going to be a high-bouncing ball dropped from the stratosphere. I wish I could feel something, my head is in a really fucked place, like I'm sitting and watching my life as a performance rather than ( Read more... )

                                                   Be Still and Know.

This always was.  This always will be.  I am but a moment in it.

The allowing of moments to perfectly align-

A shutting off of the overactive mind-

Receiving the blueprints of cosmic design…

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Hi all, so where to now? Home (east coast)? Chicago? Louiville? Here? Parts unknown? How strange to have all the insecurity of the invisible tomorrow, w/ absolutely none of the spontanaety. Hmmm, the circus...

Ok, so now we rejoice- there will be no divorce, we are going to work everything out. No problem? Sure, if one can shake off the whiplash of your entire canvas being drowned in bleach, put in the mindframe of having to re-route your life, and then just as suddenly; it was all an illusion, and any change has been merely cosmetic ( Read more... )

Sometime in the middle of the night, Stacy & I have decided through much sadness to divorce. We came to this agreement peacably, but I am stunned, and a little sick to my stomach.
Anyhow, we hope to remain friends; perhaps we simply weren't meant for each other. It is a sad day, and I don't know what is going to happen next.

i don't know. you go through life and seek out wisdom, and things begin to settle on you that make no sense at the moment, but you know are true. Latest realization: There is nothing personally wrong w/ people who follow orders just for the sake of following them ( Read more... )

So here I am concerned about getting a high Grade Point Average, and in other places, friends are coping w/ life and death issues (sometimes literally). Feeling a bit trivial today, but still realizing that everything is relative. I only feel off balance due to comparing my daily reality to others. Perspective, John. Just do your thing, and let ( Read more... )

A balloon losing its' helium, seeming to float by will alone, keeps touching down on the tines of a vast conveyor belt. Somehow it has wandered into a factory, and it is only a matter of time before it has been snagged, pulled into the machinery, and reduced to its' base components; perhaps to be reused for a more productive purpose, or perhaps ( Read more... )

How is it that you can come back to a bridge you have tried so hard to burn; and bitterly grieve it's passing? Some people are just too painful to love- but they say the heart is always the last thing that burns. You certainly pay for the mistakes you make in this world, but the tragedy is learning how not to make them too late. Regret overflows ( Read more... )

tired and horny; a hopelessly human moment.
Day 2 of 'Charlotte's Web'- I haven't done a two show day in a while! Alright boys and girls, stick a fork in me, I'm done. I sleep now.