It's been so long since I've written in here. I moved again. Matt and I got a duplex in south Buffalo...and a pooch!!! He is called Courage..the cowardly dog!! He is a german shepard-collie mix and the most beautiful dog I've ever seen ( Read more... )

I am so grateful for the life that God has given me. Sometimes I miss church so bad. I miss everyone. I miss singing. I mean I sing now, but that's MY music, not God's. Matt said that he would go to church with me every sunday if I wanted to go, but I told him I miss MY church, plus we wouldn't be accepted because we're living in sin. I can't ( Read more... )

I think Matt and I are going to move to TN next year. He keeps bugging me about it. I want to start somewhere new together, it was his idea to be so soon though. I know I'm going to marry this boy someday, but I don't want to move there until I do because I would want to buy a house or something, not rent. Get good jobs and such too ( Read more... )

I'm fucking fuming today!!! First, Matt went to go to work and 10 minutes later came back inside with a pissed off look on his face..... I asked him what was wrong and he told me, someone stole my car. WHAT?!?!?!?!?! Ok so then I got a call from workers comp saying that they have to relook into my claim because APPARENTLY they don't think that ( Read more... )

I guess I'm starting to like myself more, but the reaccurance of hate towards myself is killing me....slowly. I can't work at Accellent anymore. My doctor won't let me She wrote me a note for workers comp last week, but I have yet to even call them. I think my depression is going away because it's starting to get warm again....it's confusing my ( Read more... )

So I was thinking in the bathroom while I was brushing my teeth about all of the things that I miss. I don't miss living in machias and I don't miss living with my parents, but I do miss the people. Sure I have my own, GREAT, friends here in Buffalo, but I still miss the old friends that don't call me back anymore. I even miss the "fair-weather ( Read more... )

So here I sit in class, doing absolutely nothing. I can't concentrate today! I can't really concentrate period. When I'm home I just want to be with Matt and when I'm not home I'm at work. I've become lazy. I mean no matter what, I always get my work done and in ontime, but I'm procrastinating this 10 page research paper like mad ( Read more... )

So... I'm not allowed to go back to work yet. I'm waiting to see if I can get worker's comp because my doctor won't let me work or even set foot in the building. It's so boring not working. The only good part is that I get to spend like the whole day with Matthew. Ever since we got this apartment together our relationship has gone beyond ( Read more... )

I'm so upset today...I feel like crying. Matt and I moved in to this new apartment last weekend. It's been great....up until yesterday when I was emitted into the emergency room. I had an allergic reaction the antibiotic that I was on. I was at work when I broke out in hives, had a hard time breathing, and my arms were really weak. I called Dr ( Read more... )

I'm moving again. I found a place right the road for ten dolars cheaper a month and it's 3 times bigger with 2 bedrooms instead of just one. Matt and I move in the last week of Oct. I already gave my lanlord 30 days notice and he acted upset. I'm going to tell him exactly why after I move out because I don't feel safe doing it now. I don't ( Read more... )