Bad Days

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I'm so upset today...I feel like crying. Matt and I moved in to this new apartment last weekend. It's been great....up until yesterday when I was emitted into the emergency room. I had an allergic reaction the antibiotic that I was on. I was at work when I broke out in hives, had a hard time breathing, and my arms were really weak. I called Dr. Deahn's and told them about it and the doctor told me to go straight to the emergency room. I was so upset. I had to drive myself down the road the the MAC center. They put an IV in me and pumped me full of bactine, steriods, and then benedryl. I was then told I wouldn't be able to drive myself home because of the medicne they out in my IV, it's a good thing too because I wouldn't have been able to function. I passed out, literally like 8 times while I was in the hospital bed. I had to call Matt to come and pick me up because, well I'm an hour away from family. He was like 4 hours late for work. It was cute though, he sat by the bed and held my hand while I kept hallucinating and passing out. I didn't end up going to work today because I wasn't able to drive still because of the bendryl. I was told to take it for 24 hours after my hospitalization. I was all fucked today until just a few hours ago. There's a lot on my mind right now besides this, but I don't feel like i want the whole world to know so I'll just quit.

"AND YOURE, YOURE NOT HERE, AND I CAN'T STOP PRETENDING THAT YOURE FOREVER MINE"