In case nobody's noticed, I don't use LJ much anymore. Well, not at all, really. So... Yeah. Keep me on your friends lists if you want, but yeah... I'll be cleaning mine out, I suppose, when I get around to it. I might even delete this journal, once I've saved all my entries. Or maybe I won't save them. I've still gotta decide. So, anyways, back to ( Read more... )

I don't ever want to go that way,
I don't ever want to stay the same,
Sorry I've got no time for you,
And I know that you're hating me too,
Now you're leaving everything behind,
And it's blowing me out of my mind,
I don't want your point of view,
I don't fuckin' care!

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Cause I'm here, ready to take it all here
Everything's feeling unclear
I wish it was raining
Cause I hate every beautiful day
Faces in the crowd
Fake smiles for miles
My imitations wrong of them again

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Every day I feel like a soldier going to war
And I'm my own army up against millions
It's always the way, it doesn't change
I've always got to fight for myself, by myself

( the entry )

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take
Is another mistake to you
And every second I waste
Is more than I can take

( the entry )

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit tonight

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I'm nothing.

( the entry )

Hey you, what do you see?
Something beautiful, something free?
Hey you, are you trying to be mean?
If you live with apes, man, it's hard to be clean
There's no time to discriminate,
Hate every motherfucker
That's in your way

( the entry )

It's just... strange.
The worries and just everything
It's all so overwhelming
But I haven't cried
Is that a good thing?
I can feel myself getting better
When I'm strong...
I'll be able to be independent
Can't wait till that day.

( the entry )

Anger is the new happiness
And fascism the new democracy
They're all little angels
And they look at me like I'm Satan
Well, fuck them all
I won't take this shit lying down
I will not be treated like shit
'Cause of something out of control
I have some ideas about happiness
And those who do and don't deserve it
They'll all pay one day...

( the entry )