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I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit tonight
Lyrics: "Breaking the Habit" - Linkin Park
I love that song. The lyrics are so great, the music is catchy, what more could you ask for? Heehee. And I love the video clip.
I'm so tired. Last night I went to sleep at 7:30, I didn't get to talk to Robert 'cause I was so sleepy, and all night I kept having countless nightmares about getting punished majorly for doing small things while others are doing shitloads of worse things. It's so fucking horrible, I can't even get away from it when I sleep.
Yesterday was so uneventful, it's pretty much not worth writing about. Just like the rest of my life. Fuck.
I'm really sick of living this life. The only three people I give a shit about are my mum, Robert and Marlo. Well, and Maki and my dad, but they're a little less "needed", if you know what I mean (if that sounded cold, it wasn't meant to). I wake up early in the morning, I get on the 'net for a while, I don't even talk to my fave dudes on the 'Twas Brillig board anymore. Then I go to school, have a really shitty time there, go home, do homework, call Robert, talk for a while, say the "I love you"s and goodnight. I sleep. Great fucking interesting day. I don't even want to go to school, but then my social life will be completely nonexistant. I mean, everyone else I know always has people to talk to, places to go, etc. What do I have to do? Wait until Robert has a day free (since I'm not even allowed to see Marlo outside of school full stop, thanks to her mum's opinion of me), then go out with him for a while, have a cuddle, a kiss, and maybe something more if he's over at my place. Pretty shitty life.
Having said that, I'm so happy that I'm in love. I don't know where this feeling came from, but suddenly I've realised how good Robert and I are together, despite the things we've done to each other. We're great, we're in love. It's so damn good. Sure, we argue, but that's okay since we're so good the other times. I just feel so loved by him, and I love him so much. I just hope all this love isn't masking another cheat scandal, or something worse.
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit tonight
Lyrics: "Breaking the Habit" - Linkin Park
I love that song. The lyrics are so great, the music is catchy, what more could you ask for? Heehee. And I love the video clip.
I'm so tired. Last night I went to sleep at 7:30, I didn't get to talk to Robert 'cause I was so sleepy, and all night I kept having countless nightmares about getting punished majorly for doing small things while others are doing shitloads of worse things. It's so fucking horrible, I can't even get away from it when I sleep.
Yesterday was so uneventful, it's pretty much not worth writing about. Just like the rest of my life. Fuck.
I'm really sick of living this life. The only three people I give a shit about are my mum, Robert and Marlo. Well, and Maki and my dad, but they're a little less "needed", if you know what I mean (if that sounded cold, it wasn't meant to). I wake up early in the morning, I get on the 'net for a while, I don't even talk to my fave dudes on the 'Twas Brillig board anymore. Then I go to school, have a really shitty time there, go home, do homework, call Robert, talk for a while, say the "I love you"s and goodnight. I sleep. Great fucking interesting day. I don't even want to go to school, but then my social life will be completely nonexistant. I mean, everyone else I know always has people to talk to, places to go, etc. What do I have to do? Wait until Robert has a day free (since I'm not even allowed to see Marlo outside of school full stop, thanks to her mum's opinion of me), then go out with him for a while, have a cuddle, a kiss, and maybe something more if he's over at my place. Pretty shitty life.
Having said that, I'm so happy that I'm in love. I don't know where this feeling came from, but suddenly I've realised how good Robert and I are together, despite the things we've done to each other. We're great, we're in love. It's so damn good. Sure, we argue, but that's okay since we're so good the other times. I just feel so loved by him, and I love him so much. I just hope all this love isn't masking another cheat scandal, or something worse.