i haven't looked at livejournal for a few while now. i have a couple, this one and ithinkiloved you. i looked at ithinkiloved you recently because someone left a comment and it went to my email. i cringed. for some time i cringed. i cringed and i thought and i read ( Read more... )

you know what really pisses me off... i'm going to tell you ( Read more... )

my guy got elected. pretty exciting.

i hope that no one has had the misfortune of watching 'average joe' because it is absolutely god-awful. one among the myriad of made-for-tv-love shoes. and yes, i watched it. and no, that doesn't make me crap, it only means my brain had to lay still and cry while i paused from writing a paper ( Read more... )

failure is a scary thing. in many ways. what i hate most about it is it sends you down that proverbial spiral. once you start screwing up you feel almost compelled to keep doing it. you screw up once, feel terrible, try and make things better, then you screw up again and again and again. and it just keeps going. knocks down your faith in your ( Read more... )

anxiety keeping me awake as the first stings of sobriety prepare me for the workweek. a short workweek. one that allows for a sleepless night. (note name ( Read more... )

i hate cooking. i hate it. i hate food too. i hate it most because its always interrupting me. i'll be enjoying a perfectly good existential crisis when my body annoyingly draws attention to itself. it always wants something. eat. sleep. shit. its distracting. especially when i try to rise above. get philosophical. or even sad. and just when i'm ( Read more... )

my god! do you ever read through your journal???
jeez. why didn't anyone warn me.

i was walking behind a middle aged couple today. they were kind of dressed up, in that out of date middle aged way. they seemed to be in a rush. the woman went to take the man's hand, but that moment he was putting his keys into his pocket. then the man went to take the woman's hand, but she was fixing her dress. then their hands found each other. ( Read more... )

sometimes its really important to think. to remember things. to feel sweet things that you let go of a long time ago. sometimes you have to remind yourself that you haven't changed as much as you think you have. that you're not what you pretend to be. sometimes you have to remember that deep down inside you still know what is right and what is ( Read more... )