Just like Cher and Madonna and countless other divas, I'm reinventing myself.

He was just a proximity infatuation.

I feel so cheap.

I'm just trying to be happy. Make myself happy.
I'm so tired of being unhappy.

Since when do I need/seek the approval of anyone?
Why is he any different?

I think I'm gonna hurl.

Also, this is the first time I've stayed up all night and saw the sun rise since Gary.

Fuckin' A.

I just want to know why I'm not good enough.

Erin,

PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER, WOMAN.

okokok. I'm doing a lot better, thanks for asking. I think I'm almost back to normal.
I'm going to focus my efforts wholeheartedly onto something else. Stuff I've been meaning to do for a while now.

I think I have sufficiently entombed Madonna back into the part of my psyche where she belongs, so I might be able to start being happy and have fun again.

Now, if I could only get a handle on my motherfucking dreams.

I get rejected even when I "settle".. LOLOL

Fanfuckingtastic.

I feel so pathetic.

I know it's not productive, but all I feel like doing is cursing and throwing shit.

And I keep reminding myself, "it's just David, he's really not worth getting upset over", but I'm not convincing shit.

I think that's the most pathetic part.

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