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Fuck boys.
This is what I hate about boys: they can take the most confident, self-empowered female and make her completely doubt herself and obliterate her self-esteem. Boys should not have that kind of power. It's fucked up. And it's completely unfair.
I don't get it.
I'm not crazy. I work very hard to recognize when I'm being a crazy girl and change it! I know how crazy girls are and I do not do the shit they do because I KNOW it's crazy. I'm not half a
'tard, I'm easy-going and somewhat spontaneous and I can run with the boys. I'm not overtly "girly"; I'm not afraid of rodents or bugs (bees/spiders are another story but both those are reasonable). Yeah, I like chick-flicks but I love action films, too. I take care of myself. I'm "average" size for a girl. I'm not slutty and I don't flirt with absolutely everything that moves. I don't believe in marriage so I won't try and trap a boy, or talk about "forever" with them; I don't believe in it. I'm not clingy.. quite the opposite actually; I've had two different boys tell me I'm not clingy enough for [read: dependent on] them.
What I really don't get is that the boys I choose are not, like, unattainable. I don't shoot for the fucking moon. My emotions are generally pinned on boys I'm friends with [MJ, David...] boys I already know I have a lot in common with, have fun with, and get along with. So why doesn't it ever work out? Why don't THEY like ME? What is it about me that is so not girl-friend material? I don't get it.
Oh, also, I don't want to DATE them. If by dating you imply going out on expensive dates, or romantic picnics or shit. I don't want that! I don't want anything serious or permanent. I just want to have fun and have someone I can have fun with. I'm very much a boy in that way; I'm not sentimental or romantic at all. I don't find that frilly shit fun. That's not how I am. So, what's to dislike about having a noncommittal, casual relationship with a friend? I do not mean "open" relationship, I just mean that I am not stupid; I know it's college and, hell, I'll probably be moving in January so I am very aware that it won't be for forever, or even for very long for that matter. But why can't we just have fun for a few months?
I don't want to feel like I have to persuade someone to date me. "Here's a list of reasons why I am not so bad and why you are an idiot for not wanting to date me".
I think boys do not know what they want and they actually WANT a girl who is all those things they say they hate. That has to be it, because I work very hard to be the opposite of those crazy girls boys say they hate and no boys like me, so obviously I'm too much of a boy to be liked. I AM TOO MUCH OF WHAT YOU WANT FOR YOU TO WANT IT BECAUSE YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU ACTUALLY WANT.
Fail.
This is what I hate about boys: they can take the most confident, self-empowered female and make her completely doubt herself and obliterate her self-esteem. Boys should not have that kind of power. It's fucked up. And it's completely unfair.
I don't get it.
I'm not crazy. I work very hard to recognize when I'm being a crazy girl and change it! I know how crazy girls are and I do not do the shit they do because I KNOW it's crazy. I'm not half a
'tard, I'm easy-going and somewhat spontaneous and I can run with the boys. I'm not overtly "girly"; I'm not afraid of rodents or bugs (bees/spiders are another story but both those are reasonable). Yeah, I like chick-flicks but I love action films, too. I take care of myself. I'm "average" size for a girl. I'm not slutty and I don't flirt with absolutely everything that moves. I don't believe in marriage so I won't try and trap a boy, or talk about "forever" with them; I don't believe in it. I'm not clingy.. quite the opposite actually; I've had two different boys tell me I'm not clingy enough for [read: dependent on] them.
What I really don't get is that the boys I choose are not, like, unattainable. I don't shoot for the fucking moon. My emotions are generally pinned on boys I'm friends with [MJ, David...] boys I already know I have a lot in common with, have fun with, and get along with. So why doesn't it ever work out? Why don't THEY like ME? What is it about me that is so not girl-friend material? I don't get it.
Oh, also, I don't want to DATE them. If by dating you imply going out on expensive dates, or romantic picnics or shit. I don't want that! I don't want anything serious or permanent. I just want to have fun and have someone I can have fun with. I'm very much a boy in that way; I'm not sentimental or romantic at all. I don't find that frilly shit fun. That's not how I am. So, what's to dislike about having a noncommittal, casual relationship with a friend? I do not mean "open" relationship, I just mean that I am not stupid; I know it's college and, hell, I'll probably be moving in January so I am very aware that it won't be for forever, or even for very long for that matter. But why can't we just have fun for a few months?
I don't want to feel like I have to persuade someone to date me. "Here's a list of reasons why I am not so bad and why you are an idiot for not wanting to date me".
I think boys do not know what they want and they actually WANT a girl who is all those things they say they hate. That has to be it, because I work very hard to be the opposite of those crazy girls boys say they hate and no boys like me, so obviously I'm too much of a boy to be liked. I AM TOO MUCH OF WHAT YOU WANT FOR YOU TO WANT IT BECAUSE YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK YOU ACTUALLY WANT.
Fail.