how in one night everything can get so completely fucked up. 

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...however briefly, 
i will be back for awhile.
i don't think anyone really gives a shit that i'm moving,
because so far I have no plans.
i just want to spend some time with everyone before I leave,
and it's like nobody really cares at all.

i think some people are pissed at me for my choices.
oh wellllllllll.

 
i'm still a child in so many ways
but i have seen and been through so much in just seventeen years.
life has bruised me plenty
but i wouldn't change a thing.
I am small, I am insignificant
But I promise you will never meet anyone else like me.

I'm very much in love.
I hate making decisions but when it comes down to it,
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10 bucks says you don't have it in you to conquer fear

[ I whine, alot... ]

My self esteem has been fucked, lately. More so than usual. I have become so self conscious and so easily upset, I cannot watch a stupid tv show about starving anorexics or even something as lame as ANTM without subconsciously comparing myself to the supermodel strutting ( Read more... )

        
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about everything. my mind is never made up. I have been forced to make decisions that I am not capable of making. I am selfish. I am a coward. I am a hypocrite. I AM A COMPLETE MESS. I do not want to run away from my problems but somehow I think that this is the only way. I cannot leave the ones I love, I cannot function without them. I have become ( Read more... )

Missing people is something that I've had to learn to live with. Moving place to place, aqquiring new step fathers and step siblings every few years and then dropping them..will do that to you. And yet, somehow I have become this. I am emotional, I am sympathetic and empathetic and I grow far too attached to people much too quickly..separation ( Read more... )

i fucked up againnnnn :/

i'm getting sicker and sicker everyday, butt whatever i can deal.

yeahhhhhhhhh...

duck and cover.

i wish i saved up for rainy days,
cause they're the hardest to stay dry.