i just copy & paste my myspace blogs in here now a'days, baha!
i'm still a child in so many ways
but i have seen and been through so much in just seventeen years.
life has bruised me plenty
but i wouldn't change a thing.
I am small, I am insignificant
But I promise you will never meet anyone else like me.
I'm very much in love.
I hate making decisions but when it comes down to it,
I'm capable of making up my mind and doing what's best.
I have sacrificed my own happiness for the people I love, again and again
Most times I was dicked over, or forgotten about.
So this time, I'm gonna try and do something good for myself.
I don't know what's going to happen. I guess we'll have to wait and see.
my mind is warped due to your failure to comply, everything's fucked and you are lacking the compassion that i never asked for but always hoped was there. beyond the hatred and the never ending fights, beyond all that, somewhere. But it was this that I longed for which I never found. Oh, well. No harm done. I am SICK I am SMALL and I am ruined after all. And we continue to dance this dance and play this game as if it's just another ticket-your lottery, sorry! Looks like you're still STUCK with me--defiant, misshapen, and completely messed up. To everyone who loved me I am sorry for so many things. I have infected your lives and spread my filth, I have planted my guilt and now I sit back and watch for yet another devastating explosion. BOOM.
alot is going to happen in the next few months.
and i'm terrified. excited. sick. anxious. happy. sad. overwhelmed.
relieved. depressed. i am feeling every emotion humanly possible,
and it's exhausting.
i'm actually really, really scared.
but i can't back out now, so here i go.
any encouragement would be appreciated :]
