these are all the poems ive written in the past month and half. it goes from oldest to newest ( Read more... )

I'm looking at you through the glass ( Read more... )

cold and shaking. but nothing feels warm enough. even the touch of another person isnt warm enough. only he can bring that warmth back. and fill the void that grows with everyday he is gone... 18 days without him, feels like a lifetime of never having him. i hate these feelings. i just want to be warm again :'(

im gong insane waiting. waiting for that phone call, or that time that i log onto myspace and theres a message from him. why hasnt he gotten ahold of me? he must know how hard this shit is on me. but still no word. as far as i know noone has even seen him. which is really really odd, because if hes in racine, someone has to see him. i just dont ( Read more... )

im finally home after like 12 days. woops. i walk in and there a new computer still in its box just chillaxing by the desk. i was like oh fuck yea. it made me happy. its all hooked up and im burning cds right now. the one gay thing about this computer, theres no floppy drive. wtf is up with that? i have alot of pics saved on discs to save room on ( Read more... )

and then shoved a barbell through my tongue. hehehehe... i got my tongue pierced now! WOOT!!! and i got a perty tongue ring to. its pinkish.

it never fails. something starts getting good in my life and then something else gets fucked up. its like one door opens and 3 close and hit me in the ass. ha.. taht amused me how i said that. hopefully things will work out soon between me and my mom. the changes that are going to be made very soon i think will help alot. i think i need to start ( Read more... )

BAD NEWS ( Read more... )

i broke up with brian last night. i couldnt handle the bullshit. and theres someone else id rather be with anyways. people fucking suck. i cant ever be happy without some bullshit happening and ruining it all. i cried so much last night. and i was soo close to having a panic attack im actually rather suprised that i didnt. i did start ( Read more... )

last night bad things happened. i dont even want to know if i want to go into it all. but this is what i awoke to this morning on myspace ( Read more... )