My breath is drowned, my flame suffocated.. and like a sleeping beauty, I wish to be sedated
im gong insane waiting. waiting for that phone call, or that time that i log onto myspace and theres a message from him. why hasnt he gotten ahold of me? he must know how hard this shit is on me. but still no word. as far as i know noone has even seen him. which is really really odd, because if hes in racine, someone has to see him. i just dont understand. all i want is to know, know that hes ok, know that i can see him and feel his arms around me soon. but thats not happening. and it kills me everyday. i lay there in my room, my mind wandering endlessly. there are a few possibilities as to where he is and why he hasnt gotten ahold of me. 3 of the 4 i would hate if were true. i want to call to find out for sure but im to afraid of what the response might be, and i have to ask myself.. would knowing be worse than not? i cant ever stop thinking about him for more than a minute. and i can barely sleep anymore. i just want to know.