hmm anyhow. i feel like getting drunk.

come get me drunk someone, and tell me i'm beautiful.

i regret it bonnie. not that it was with you, but the act itself. i have not been able to feel clean since then. with recent conversations with people going the way they do, ive been forced to think more and more of this first time. and i wash my hands frequently. i feel dirty knowing what i know about me. i am thinking it is the source of my ( Read more... )

i am in love with love, i think, that and indecision.
i am told i would make a good friend. which is better than nothing, i suppose.
but i wonder how i'll resist touching her porcelain face.

i don't know what's real anymore. moving feels like nothing. i feel nothing. i do hear voices though. very vague. often only a few words are clear enough to decipher each day. but these voices seem more real than anything. it feels like i am in a dream, and these voices are real people speaking to me as i lay. i don't want any of this. i have ( Read more... )

enemy at the gates
saving private ryan
full metal jacket
blackhawk down
clockwork orange
seventh seal
dawn of the dead (the OG version, duh)
young frankenstein
jesus christ superstar
bill madison
citizen cane
resovoir dogs
akira
strange brew
stripes
hannah and her sisters
fargo
rain man
harry potter giblets of fire
narnia

i so have a life...

i have no idea of what you speak, woman.


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it is decided that i can't function as a normal person, whatever that means. am i excused from my obligations yet? the bus will be leaving soon, and i'll be in the rest stop trying to tuck in my shirt still. i won't make it. i'll end up working as a janitor there. i'll regret missing the bus, but i'll know staying here was the safest thing to do ( Read more... )

air force?

i'm glad you think i am a child.

in the last (at least) 48 hours ive consumed more tuna salad than anyone ever. and well over a loaf of bread. fuck low carb diets, bread is the best invention since it started coming pre-sliced.

tangibility can bit it, by the way. (: fuck emoticons. seriously.