There is so much running through my head, .. so many emotions shooting through me. I feel like hell, .. I'm seriously drained. Saturday night was horrible.. I wanted to die ( Read more... )

For the length, here's the cut. This entry is long, .. well to me it is. Feel free to comment, .. hell just to help me to know that you guys actually read what I write.

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To Jess: Today is your burrday, so happy burrday. Tomorrow isn't your burrday, so no happy burrday. Tomorrow we will get drunk for you burrday even though it's not your burrday. OoOoO Burrday. O_o Love, Me.

I've boarded up the windows to keep the morning from intrusion
I've left it on the doorknob, could you please just not disturb
On days like this we find it so hard to push ourselves up and out of bed
When nothing falls in favor of
I have so many things I would like to explain to you
But I don't know just how to communicateI can't take this body ( Read more... )

Yesterday was Brianna's birthday so I went to that & had a really good time. An hour or so after I got there a little group ended up in the living room talking about horror movies & music. Somehow in all of that we all ended up talking about going to Ozzfest. I had been thinking about it but didn't know if anyone would want to go. To my suprise ( Read more... )

I should start updating more than I have.

So let me see what's been going on. I've been with Heather<3 everyday. I can't explain how happy I've been lately just because everything has gone back to the way it was before. She's with me when she gets off & with me until she has to go home & go to bed. I never thought this would happen again, .. that ( Read more... )

This weekend has truly made up for the bad days. Heather came over Saturday before prom to get pictures with me & so I could get pictures of her. She was g o r g e o u s . I took so many pictures. I'll post them soon. Afterwards she had to meet her friends to go to Prom. Me & Jess decided to rent movies & we got Suspect Zero (which we didn't get ( Read more... )

Even though I know better, .. even though I've been here before, ..

I'm still hanging on every word you say even if it's a lie.

I just finished watching "I, Robot" & I actually really enjoyed it. I've been in the mood to watch movies lately, .. hopefully if all goes well the movie night that was planned for last week will happen this weekend. Everybody messed up & said they were in the mood to watch old horror films, now honestly who says that in front of me & expects it ( Read more... )

Last night was really good, .. for one of the most simplest reasons, .. just because, .. she's really doing this, .. she's really fixing everything, .. & I can't describe it because the words escape me. All I know is that this is going to work, .. & it won't be long .. til she is back where she belongs. <3 ( Read more... )