『thirty-nine 』 | accidentally posted, hastily filtered from marauders & lily

[equalmarked]

Every day that passes, I realize how it's like to be normal. No Voldemort, no visions. No having to worry whether the person behind me is going to try and kill me. Spending time with Ron, Neville, and Luna- talking to Lily Potter. These are how things are supposed to be, right?

...But I don't have the right to just run away. Not while there's a

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[innercourage]

Harry....

[equalmarked]

I know it must seem like we disappeared, Neville. It must seem like that to everyone at Hogwarts.

We're haven't, I promise.

filtered as best he can from Snape

[innercourage]

I believe you. I do, honest.

I...I can't claim to understand your current situation, or offer understanding for everything you've got to put up with, or what you feel are your responsibilities but...what I can say is that I don't expect things to be easy or perfect or for you to have a secret weapon up your sleeve or anything like that. I don't expect you to be able to fix everything...there's no way one person can do all that and still be sane afterwards, unless they have people to help them fix it. I'm not sure if that came out exactly how I wanted it to--

I guess what I'm trying to say is...just do your best, Harry. The rest of us are here to support you, if you need it. Those of us still in the DA, anyway. I don't know how much any of us could really help, but...if there's anything, you can always let us know. We won't think less of you for it.

I definately won't, anyway.

And...yeah.

filtered as best he can from Snape 1/2

[equalmarked]

I'm sorry I can't tell you or the rest of the DA, anything. I can't, even if this curse attempts to force me-

I can't promise to fix everything, but I will try my best to accomplish what I survived for.

[theotokos]

Then don't run away, don't give up. Every fucking thing in life has a road block, nothing is ever simple. But that doesn't mean anyone fails.

[equalmarked]

I don't plan to run away or give up, but even that doesn't guarantee I'll succeed.

[theotokos]

Yeah, if you keep up thinking that way, you won't.

1/2

[equalmarked]

I don't make it a habit to think this way, but when it comes down to the bare facts- things aren't really leaning on my side, Lady.

[alldevouring]

It's okay, Harry.

It might be bleak right now, but you don't have to feel that way. You're not alone.

[equalmarked]

Yeah, I know. I know. I'm not alone. Doesn't mean I want to drag everyone into this.

[alldevouring]

You don't want to, but no one will want you to be alone, that's what friends are like.

I don't know- it would be mean to say you would have to deal with it, but-

Maybe the best way to protect someone is allow them to fight alongside with you?

[equalmarked]

There simply are some things I can't share with them. And being around me usually means getting hurt- At least back at home.