There are times in my life when all at once I am completely engulfed by the madness. There are times, this madness is deafening and times when I hear only myself and the quickness in my heart. Each time I am taught a lesson. Sometimes this lesson balances my soul. And sometimes there is too much pressure laid upon my heart and my only safety valve ( Read more... )

you have to learn what's in her heart
before you can win it over

Evolution of passion ( Read more... )

 there have been so many acts of kindness recently and i just want to share them

my dad walked me to my car after easter dinner.

borsos has called me each day just to 'check up' instead of chatting about her recent engagement.

my mom sent me a check for a tv because she is afraid i will miss the news and not know what is happening in the world ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like it so hard to take your world, and then neatly place it in a box. To say everything will  now have a new place with a new home with a new vision. i say it's hard. but on the other hand, very rewarding. especially when the world you are packing away, in your heart, you know just wasn't good enough. just didn't make you as happy ( Read more... )

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) -- pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?

Find your birthday and then find your tree. ( Read more... )

damn! I have too many issues this morning

I am the busy bee

busy bee in the low end of the honey chain

sometimes I think I will never grasp the whole beat of corporate

maybe because i am too naive for the political attributes

damn office politics

i will never grasp them

and i will never benefit from them

like i'm the broken being, hating to be contacted. im only bringing up the obvious that happened the last time we talked. but 'no!' that seemed to be my fault. 'how could you bring that up?!' that isnt what i remember. that makes me laugh- well, what about the 2 times after the proposal when we 'talked'? do you they make you laugh and feel ( Read more... )

i was sitting here, thinking of something to write. (i have a lot on my mind) but all i keep thinking about is nachos and how delicious they would be. not just nachos and cheese. but the 8 layer dip nachos with jalapenos and homemade salsa, three cheeses, black olives, tomatoes, lettuce, extra sour cream and hold the guacamole. mmmmm

i have 2 issues

1. i think i am afraid to move anywhere from where i am standing

because then, if i move, from the comfort and convienece of what i know

i might get hurt. so right now i sit. where i know. i feel sort of stupid.

self doubt has really kicked my ass this week. and i am a pretty confident creature. i havent taken it to well, in fact i ( Read more... )