Wow, it's been 28 weeks since I've updated this thing. I suppose no one's reading it, anyway, so I'll feel free to vent ( Read more... )

Some switch was turned off recently. A weird mix of sadness, longing, and throbbing, deeply aching yearning for love surfaced. I want to cloak myself in darkness and sleep 12 hour days. Even when I wake up, I wish I was back asleep. And the moments of clarity or near clarity…when this overwhelming fog lifts… are short-lived, cognizant, and soon ( Read more... )

If I was given the chance, what would I say to you? My pride would keep me from saying anything - fear would keep me from approaching you, even urge me to go out of my way to avoid you! But, if I let my heart speak… I’d say I loved you. Probably more than anyone, I loved you without reason or agenda. Certainly I wasn’t receiving anything beneficial ( Read more... )

Kay, for all those office-loving geeks out there, I vist a chat room (yes, a chatroom. but it's not scary. it's an im window on a website page.) on officetally.com. And while the show is the tie-that-binds, we don't usually talk about it. We'll often start rambling on about whatever for however long. The other night, we spent an hour being excited ( Read more... )

(please excuse the randomness of this post...I threw it up there when I was in the Office chatroom a couple nights back because it amused me. When I was in the middle of reformatting what I had just typed, Angela Kinsey, who plays Angela Martin, the uptight blonde accountant, on The Office, waltzed in to the chatroom and it was a big deal. So... ( Read more... )

"When my mother was pregnant, they did an ultrasound and found out she was having twins. When they did another ultrasound a few weeks later, they discovered that I had resorbed the other fetus. Do I regret this? No. I believe his tissue has made me stronger. I now have the strength of both a grown man and a little baby."

Some people may not know ( Read more... )

I don't know what's compelled me to post multiple posts in a week, but... whatever. This and my dreams are a dumping ground for my thoughts ( Read more... )

So if you've been reading this LJ or know anything about me, you'll know that I am a bizarre medical anomaly. It seems like every time I go to the doctor's office, they find something else wrong with me. Right before graduation last year, the Penn State doctors made me go through a battery of tests (in C-burg after graduation) for Ulcerative ( Read more... )

So today was another lovely day at Citi. I showed up 15 minutes late because I felt my soul was being crushed and didn't care. I also decided I'm going to see HR tomorrow about my boss. I can't explain why everything's turned into an office analogy for me lately, but my relationship w/ my boss is like Michael and Toby's. We have to make phone calls ( Read more... )

I have a favorite song. Everyone needs to listen to it. It's Kendall Payne's "Never Leave," and the lyrics go like this (I've probably posted these before on here..but not for awhile ( Read more... )