I think my favorite part, though, is the part where I try to take some solace in another aspect of my life after something unfortunate has befallen me, and that solace is pushed right back into my face to nicely complete the circle of twisted bullshit that is my life ( Read more... )

I really wish those moments would last a little bit longer, though.

This low is pretty low.

So I'm a pretty pessimistic person I guess. Very cynical, sometimes to the point of bitterness. I once blamed it on all the twisted and F-ed up things that I have experienced, and to some extent I still do, but a large part of it has to be my personality. I can't deny it at this point ( Read more... )

Except that it always drops. Always.

How can I expect to be happy?

For a really long time in my life, I was under the impression real happiness is something that just hits a person all of a sudden, after all the pieces of his/her life have finally fallen into place, and that one would be continuously happy after that moment unless some of those pieces got screwed up again ( Read more... )

I hate living my life waiting for the other shoe to drop. Even now, when all of my drama has essentially been resolved and I actually have someone in my life and I should be happy, I'm still just waiting for that moment when it's all going to collapse ( Read more... )

Idk what to do w/ myself.

What a shocker. Unfortunate incidents occurred again. The definition of asshole has once again soared to new heights, previously thought impossible but proven ever so wrong.

I hate guys.

I hate the way my life falls into patterns. Also known as, the way in which I repeat my mistakes over and over again. With boys, specifically ( Read more... )

It's funny, how when you come to find you can no longer trust one person, you find it more and more difficult to trust everyone else, too ( Read more... )