well i haven't updated in awhile. I thought I'd try to make it easier on myself and other people by pretending I'd moved on. It hasn't work. so here I am almost on august 20th, almost month after the break up at 5:00 AM typing about how I'm a wreck...and I really am. I'm thinking about how i jumped for the phone everyday the first week after she ( Read more... )

So my mom is reading through my journals while i'm not home(nosy pain in the ass that she is) and apparently i'm whacked out of my fucking head. i had to go to the doctors and sign some piece of shit paper saying i'm not going to kill/injure myself. If i didn't i would have gone straight to the mental hospital. first off she shoudn't have been ( Read more... )

Bailee broke up with me today. Apparently she never got over an old boyfriend, she hasn't talked to him for around 4 months. Today is the first day since last summer where seriously considered suicide as an option, but according to her if he shoots her down when she talks to him we might go out again. i don't really know if this is a good idea. I ( Read more... )

well bailee's parents are planning on moving back to jersey...i dont know what the fuck i'm going to do. the distance is so much that we probably wont be able to see eachother as much as we do now and i am very afraid we'll start to lose touch. i love her so much and i am so scared i don't know what to do.I should have seen this coming. everytime ( Read more... )

well i took the mid term for math...probably failed miserably. global, i passed. bailee and I and my parents went to hershey park last weekend. it was great. looking for a new drummer for the band. and this monday is my birthday and i'm probably having a FEW people over unles and shit like that. and i am truly disapointed in VH1 for showing about ( Read more... )

yesterday was my moms birthday. so we went to jersey. i played guitar a lot and ate taco bell which i almost threw back up but, thats besides the point. slept a little then went to outback and had some shrimp or somthing like that. went home on the way wished mom a happy birthday, witnessed a high speed police chase and when i got home someone had ( Read more... )

well yesterday was a good day for the most part.bailee came over early in the morning...by early i mean 11. we went to my band practice together and got a new song done. (it's about her) so the rest of the day was fun mini golf with darryl and the band and bailee. we went back to anthony's house and everyone except bailee me and mac went to sleep ( Read more... )

well...if you dont already know i'm going out with bailee now. and lately shit hasn't been bad. i'm actually really happy with my situation right now...well besides school but thats besides the point.but anyway i slept over bailee's house on saturday night(last night) and as she put in her journal 5. thats all your getting you nosey fuckers who i ( Read more... )

well i;ve been negelecting the poor innocent journal for awhile so here's an update of useless information about my life: band practice went very well on saturday not much sleep 15 foot flames and some burns from lighters. also police showed up at around 11:30 because apparently that's too late to play. anyway no more smoking at AA meetings during ( Read more... )

well ummmmmmmm hi everybody. so i'm going to bitch about standard tenage confuzion and that sort of thing. i like jess and its not somthing thats just because of look or anything like that...which is really rare the main problem is that another friend likes her too so i dunno what i should say because it's a really good friend who i dont want to ( Read more... )