Fic: Mrs Saxon's Diary. Part 8/10

[elisi]

It is COLD and snowing and I don't want to go out. *whimpers* Why don't we live right next to the school? (I actually did that for a couple of years when I was 9-10 years old. I was nearly always late

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[the_royal_anna]

Perhaps I shouldn't tell you this, but here in my tropical pocket of the country, the spring sun is shining and it's positively warm. :)

Oh! I am just catching up on this and finding it as mesmerising as ever. I love that from the start Lucy's journal has almost been the way she detaches herself from reality, and that becomes more significant than ever here. It's such a clever contrast to the last chapter too - one moment the (strangely matter-of-fact) revelation of being the wife of an evil overload, and then here, so much simpler, and yet all the more awful in its detachment, "And I guess I will learn to live with this too, along with everything else."

I love the framing of this chapter too. I just... I just wish I could remember what I said. It works so well.

[elisi]

Perhaps I shouldn't tell you this, but here in my tropical pocket of the country, the spring sun is shining and it's positively warm. :)
Well it was warm here, and we have daffodils blooming in front of the house, and then suddenly we just got snow. *throws hands up*

Oh! I am just catching up on this and finding it as mesmerising as ever.
Aw, thank you! :)

I love that from the start Lucy's journal has almost been the way she detaches herself from reality, and that becomes more significant than ever here.
You know, I'm not sure that was a conscious choice on my part, but yes - it's definitely one of her main characteristics. She never had any ambitions particularly except finding a good husband who could run the family business, so when she met the Master she grasped her only chance 'out' - which of course turned out to be not just away from her old life, but from humanity.

It's such a clever contrast to the last chapter too - one moment the (strangely matter-of-fact) revelation of being the wife of an evil overload, and then here

[chloris]

I just read the last few chapters. It's a beautifully twisted relationship they have. I love how you show her getting a little more detached from reality with each chapter.

She's so pleased with being special that she'll put up with anything and convince herself it's all good. Not that she has any choice anymore.

[elisi]

I just read the last few chapters.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!

It's a beautifully twisted relationship they have.
Isn't it just? I loved it right from the start - the wonderfully twisted take on the Timelord/companion dynamic.

I love how you show her getting a little more detached from reality with each chapter.
Her little speech in LotT was one of those 'Aaaaah' moments for me, where it all just slotted into place, because suddenly everything made sense. Bringing her to that point is fascinating.

She's so pleased with being special that she'll put up with anything and convince herself it's all good. Not that she has any choice anymore.
Yes! Exactly!

[zanthinegirl]

Sorry to hear about the icky weather! It's cold and rainy here, but 40 degrees is much easier to cope with than sleet.

Chilling look at their relationship. ::shivers:: Really enjoying this story! I thought about it as I read a "Master and Doctor go to Wolfram & Hart" to speak to a divorce attorney X-over crack-fic just now!

[elisi]

Sorry to hear about the icky weather! It's cold and rainy here, but 40 degrees is much easier to cope with than sleet.
Well it looks like it going to be a nicely clear day today (as a matter of fact the sun is shining on the screen so I can barely see what I'm writing).

Chilling look at their relationship. ::shivers::
Thank you! The fact that he started beating her up always struck me as rather odd - but then thinking about it I could suddenly see it happening like this. Unexpected, and yet not. And *of course* it'd turn him on...

Really enjoying this story!
Thank you. :) Now I just need to get the last two chapters to behave. (And write my AtF review and finish my winter_of_angel story... to mention just the most pressing items. Someone give me time!)

I thought about it as I read a "Master and Doctor go to Wolfram & Hart" to speak to a divorce attorney X-over crack-fic just now!
Oooh you're going to have to link me! Pretty please?

[zanthinegirl]

Of course!

I actually found it surfing over at the teaspoon, but realized I recognized the author's name from the Buffyverse.

[elisi]

Thank you thank you thank you!

That was *fabulous* and so so much fun! *is still giggling*

[x_bluerose_x]

I think that she not only detached, but I think she spent most of the time being in a trance state hypnotized by him. But that's my personal theory.

I have all but one fic that I wrote, a short one on Lucy/Master post LotTL. I really want to finish that when I have a moment!

[elisi]

I think that she not only detached, but I think she spent most of the time being in a trance state hypnotized by him. But that's my personal theory.
That is quite possible, definitely. I sort of imply that in the next chapter actually, but only vaguely.

I have all but one fic that I wrote, a short one on Lucy/Master post LotTL. I really want to finish that when I have a moment!
Please link me, if you want - dunno when I'll have time to read it, but I *do* love that pairing. :)

[flowsoffire]

And you explained it brilliantly.
It was very striking that Lucy was obsessing so much about what she'd said, how it opened and closed the fic. Because it'd been so sudden, so unexpected, and she could somehow sense where it was coming from, both in the moment and deep down, but the exact origin was missing. And it left her confused, off-balance. The little wife who wanted to take care of everything for her Master, be the only he relied in… What did she do?
I loved the fact that the sudden development surprised the two of them equally, and the fact that he'd never gotten upset at her before. And I loved how she understood him so much. Could read the feeling in his eyes, could focus on him only, not wonder "how could he do this to me?" or even only "what did I do?", but have enough understanding of his character that she wouldn't believe herself to be the exception-that she'd focus on him and analyse his reactions, instead of making it all about her since she'd received the blow. It was perfect insight that the more important people

[elisi]

And you explained it brilliantly.
Thank you! (I'm very proud of it.)

It was very striking that Lucy was obsessing so much about what she'd said, how it opened and closed the fic. Because it'd been so sudden, so unexpected, and she could somehow sense where it was coming from, both in the moment and deep down, but the exact origin was missing. And it left her confused, off-balance. The little wife who wanted to take care of everything for her Master, be the only he relied in… What did she do?
Of course, it doesn't matter. It would have happened sooner or later - and she knows it. But by trying to pin it down on something specific she can pretend that maybe if she'd not said what-ever-it-was, it wouldn't have happened.

I loved the fact that the sudden development surprised the two of them equally, and the fact that he'd never gotten upset at her before. And I loved how she understood him so much. Could read the feeling in his eyes, could focus on him only, not wonder "how could he do this to me?" or even only "what did I do?", but

[flowsoffire]

Thank you! (I'm very proud of it.)
You might!

Of course, it doesn't matter. It would have happened sooner or later - and she knows it. But by trying to pin it down on something specific she can pretend that maybe if she'd not said what-ever-it-was, it wouldn't have happened.
She may accept it as part of what he is, but she still needs some measure of coping process…

Indeed. And - in her own twisted way - it makes her feel special? He loves her enough to hurt her...
*insert incoherent little sound*

I don't think she'd understand compassion - all she can see is pity, and that she would never want.
Yes… There is no point to compassion…

[elisi]

She may accept it as part of what he is, but she still needs some measure of coping process…
Exactly!

*insert incoherent little sound*
So twisted... (We keep coming back to that word.)