Private - LA LA LA IGNORING THE SUBJECTvictimofnooneJune 16 2010, 06:53:15 UTC
Normally I would agree and go off about how the Admiral's a jerk who loves seeing us suffer? But he actually did something nice for me not that long ago, so.. I feel like I owe him a couple months of gratitude or whatever.
[Quirking his mouth to the side, Ned admits -] I've really never thought of it that way.
[She makes a valid point. From a pragmatic stand-point, there are definite benefits to an indefinite stay as a prisoner. He thought, for a moment, about what it would take to change that. If the Barge became a worse place, a place that wasn't easy to simply coast in, she wouldn't want to stay - but the idea was discarded as soon as it formed. Ned would never intentionally make someone's life difficult on the gamble that it'd scare them into obedience. It just wasn't his style. He continues speaking.]
I see where you're coming from, but. I just... As okay as this place can be sometimes? It's not real. It's not living.
"So?" [She offered dismissively.] "Who says I want to live?"
[The girl flinched slightly after she said it, knowing it was the kind of remark Harvey would have yelled at her for. Sometimes she meant it, sometimes she just didn't care to work toward the idea of trying to live. Whether this was living or not, even a dream, she had seen things here that she could never possibly explain or forget. The idea of going back to a 'normal' life after this just seemed unfathomable.]
[Ned was struck speechless by her admission. What could he say to something like that? He tried his best to control his expression, but he knew that at least some of his distress and sadness must've shown. It wouldn't help Hayley to feel that he felt sorry for her - in fact, he sensed that would be the absolute wrong thing. But he couldn't felt the twinge of pain he felt.
He rubbed the back of his neck tensely, searching for something to say.]
"You're the only one who can make the decision to. When you're ready, if you ever are. If it's right for you."
[Hayley frowned at Ned's reply, feeling guilty that she had seemingly, unintentionally disheartened him so much. The girl crossed her arms defensively and moved forward, not really wanting them to talk as if they were friends again. She hated these kinds of talks because neither of them enjoyed it and it didn't actually seem to get anything done.]
"It's not like I want to kill myself. I just think that like, one year of dealing with the things that happen here could be considered living more than ten years of working a 9 to 5 job back home."
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[Quirking his mouth to the side, Ned admits -] I've really never thought of it that way.
[She makes a valid point. From a pragmatic stand-point, there are definite benefits to an indefinite stay as a prisoner. He thought, for a moment, about what it would take to change that. If the Barge became a worse place, a place that wasn't easy to simply coast in, she wouldn't want to stay - but the idea was discarded as soon as it formed. Ned would never intentionally make someone's life difficult on the gamble that it'd scare them into obedience. It just wasn't his style. He continues speaking.]
I see where you're coming from, but. I just... As okay as this place can be sometimes? It's not real. It's not living.
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[The girl flinched slightly after she said it, knowing it was the kind of remark Harvey would have yelled at her for. Sometimes she meant it, sometimes she just didn't care to work toward the idea of trying to live. Whether this was living or not, even a dream, she had seen things here that she could never possibly explain or forget. The idea of going back to a 'normal' life after this just seemed unfathomable.]
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He rubbed the back of his neck tensely, searching for something to say.]
"You're the only one who can make the decision to. When you're ready, if you ever are. If it's right for you."
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"It's not like I want to kill myself. I just think that like, one year of dealing with the things that happen here could be considered living more than ten years of working a 9 to 5 job back home."
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