It doesn't make sense. Why would people look for chaos and heart ache in their lives? Or just leave other behind randomly? It just doesn't make any sense at all ( Read more... )

Waiting. Watching. Sitting. Seeing. Looking at everyone and observing. Finding the flaws in people and their habits. Feeling remorse and sorrow for all the foul things I see ( Read more... )

I've been trying to find home for so long. Was it Colorado? Or California? Or Pennsylvania ( Read more... )

I miss the hot summer nights, crouched in a field, listening for anything. I would make no sounds, stalking silently. The others would hold their distance, but I would walk into the brush, sidearm drawn. A shot would pierce the still summer night and I would wait for movement. More shots would ring out and the silence would follow. We never did ( Read more... )

-Finals are over.
-Car is for sale.
-Exhausted, hung over.

Monday, September 7, 2009 at 12:51am ( Read more... )

A man came into my work today and informed us all that his wife (a long time customer, just as he) had suffered a massive heart attack and had not gone to the hospital for two days. When she arrived, they flew her to Southeast where she was told they could do nothing--90% of her heart was already dead, and the six bypasses they would HAVE to do in ( Read more... )

It's getting harder and harder to maintain myself when I see everything and everyone around me crashing. I find myself passing time to pass the time, to not think at all but I can never stop thinking about everything. I've already packed up my room but I've still got the better part of a month until I move out. I'm staring at these boxes but I can' ( Read more... )

The summer thus far has been a series of highs and lows, both in extremities. I am trying to hold on to the middle ground and it has been getting easier, but the summer thus far has been trying, to say in the least ( Read more... )

myspace = deleted. i might start writing here. so many pages of hand written thoughts. i'll transfer them over one day.