Crush chapter 8
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“Come on, Jay. Hurry up,” Jeff yells at him.
Jared looks into the mirror, fixing his hair. He still couldn’t believe Jeff was kicking them out of the house. Mackenzie was already off to a friend’s house and Jensen offered to buy Jared dinner. Well, actually Jeff was paying for it but Jensen asked if they’d go together.
“Come on, Jay, Jeff is stressing already. No need to add to it by getting out of here too late,” Jensen says from the bathroom doorway, leaning against the door jamb.
Jared jumps, turning around to find Jensen smirking at him, “Fuck you,” Jared says, “I can’t believe Jeff is kicking us out to have dinner with his girlfriend.”
“Shut up, he’s trying to impress her by cooking dinner himself. It’s sweet.”
Jared smirks at Jensen as he passes him to get his coat, “You did not just say that,” he mumbles, taking Jensen’s hand and pulling him towards the front door.
Jeff is waiting there for them, looking annoyed.
“Listen, eight minutes for the pasta and don’t let the sauce boil,” Jensen says before Jeff pushes them both out of the door.
***
They’re walking for a few minutes when Jared realizes that he is still holding Jensen’s hand. He lets it go immediately.
“So, I didn’t know you could cook,” he says to get rid of the awkward silence.
Jensen shrugs, “I can. I just don’t do it that often.”
Jared hums and they walk on in silence. Jensen suggested they eat at the little Italian place Mac took them before. Food there had been good and plentiful so Jared didn’t mind going back to the place. When they arrive the hostess greets them both exuberantly, guiding them to a quiet table.
“I think she thinks we’re on a date,” Jensen whispers, leaning close after they sit down.
Jared laughs, putting his hand on Jensen’s, “Oh honey, I know I only deserve the best,” he says jokingly, “but where are my flowers?”
Jensen just looks at him sheepishly and Jared gasps, “You didn’t buy me flowers?”
Jensen glares at him before smirking, “If anyone should buy gifts it’s you,” he says.
Jared shrugs, sitting back and he begins telling Jensen about his day; about his classes and his teacher. Jensen just looks at him, interested, as Jared briefly wonders why they hadn’t done this before. With everything the two of them shared it felt weird that Jensen didn’t know these things about Jared’s life. He’s in the middle of telling Jensen about the guy in his class that keeps asking him out when dinner arrives.
“So I keep telling him…oh, hi Scott,” he says when he sees who the waiter is.
Jared had been out with Scott a couple of days ago but never called him after that. He realizes this as Scot gives him a weird look.
“Hi Jared,” Scot says, glancing apprehensively at Jensen.
Jared sits there, staring at Scott awkwardly before the other man coughs and leaves. Jensen laughs a little as they watch him walk away.
“Let me guess, hook-up gone bad?” he asks.
Jared shakes his head, “more like a date. I haven’t hooked up with anyone yet,” he murmurs.
As Jensen’s eyes seem to light up at that admission, Jared smiles softly at him. Jensen should be like this more often, lose the sarcasm and the cynicism and just be. He looked so much more handsome like this.
“What about you, Jen? How are your studies going?”
Jensen shrugs, blushing a little as he looks down at his plate. They talk like that for the whole evening and by the time they get home Jared feels buzzed, almost as if he’s drunk even though he hasn’t touched a drop.
“So you think it’s safe to go in?” Jared asks, faking concern.
Jensen rolls his eyes and opens the door.
“Hey,” Jared says, grabbing his hand, “I had fun tonight.”
“Night’s still young,” Jensen says, smirking.
Then he leans in to kiss Jared and Jared agrees, the night is still young, so many things they still could do. They slowly move their way to Jared’s room. Jensen pushes him down on the bed, kissing him passionately.
***
The next morning Jared wakes with Jensen spooning him. He stretches and lets out a contented sigh; he just hoped that his brother had as much fun as he did last night.
“Why are you awake already?” Jensen grumbles, pulling him closer and snuggling his neck.
“Hungry,” Jared says, moving away from Jensen so that he can get out of the bed.
He shivers slightly as he gets out from under the covers. Jensen mumbles something under his breath before rolling over and continuing to sleep.
He leaves the room and goes to the kitchen. He really needs something to eat. Sure, he had a nice dinner at the restaurant but after that he didn’t eat anything. Usually he had a midnight snack, especially if he spent the night with Jensen which was happening a lot lately. Not that Jared was complaining. Jensen was amazingly good company for someone Jared hated at first sight, it did help that the man was insanely good in the sack.
“So, little brother, up already?” Jeff asks as soon as he enters the kitchen.
Jared nods, going for the fridge to get something to eat, “How was your date?”
Jeff bows his head, smiling a little at the table and Jared knows all he needs to know. It’s awesome that his brother finally found someone who he really likes, maybe even loves. Jared couldn’t wait until he found someone like that for himself. He hears a sound coming from the door then Jeff says hello to someone so he turns around.
“Hey,” Jensen says, hair sleep-mussed and eyes blinking blearily.
Jared grins down at him and has to fight the urge to walk over and kiss him. He looks over at Jeff who was smiling down at his cell phone and figures he can risk it.
“Good morning,” he whispers against Jensen’s lips as they part.
Jensen looks a bit dazed at first but then frowns. Jared moves away from him with a smirk on his face, ready to make some breakfast for himself.
“So I was thinking,” Jensen says after a while, pouring himself coffee before sitting down next to Jeff, “might be nice to spend the day with Chris and Steve, they’re coming over in a bit.”
“Nah, man,” Jeff says as Jared turns around to finish his breakfast, and Jensen’s, if he was honest with himself, “I have to finish my paper, I’m so sorry man.”
Jared hears the regret in his brother’s voice but he feels a little sad for Jensen. They all have been so busy lately, hardly had time for each other, he could imagine Jensen missing his best friends. He places a plate with scrambled eggs in front of Jensen and takes a seat to eat his own. Jensen looks at him, eyebrow shooting up but Jared just shrugs.
“Maybe you two can hang out, you seemed to have had fun last night,” Jeff says before walking out of the room.
“We could,” Jared says, looking at Jensen.
Jensen shrugs again, eating the rest of his breakfast.
***
Chris and Steve arrive around noon and the four of them sit in the living room. Jensen and Chris are laughing and playing guitar. Chris is showing Jensen the notes of every new song he’s written and Jared feels a little bit left out. He didn’t think he would be the fifth wheel, not once had he thought it would be like this. He doesn’t know what he did expect, maybe Jensen giving him all of his attention or something like he did when they were alone. But he guessed that if they’re not alone Jensen doesn’t think he’s interesting enough.
“They’re always like that,” Steve says, handing Jared a beer.
Jared looks away from Jensen to stare at Steve.
“Seriously, sometimes even I get jealous. They just have some kind of connection, you don’t have to worry about it, though,” Steve says, nodding at Jensen.
When Jared returns his gaze to the other man, Jensen is looking at him while Chris is playing some notes. Chris taps him to get his attention back and Jensen breaks their stare to smile at Chris.
“Yeah,” Jared says absentmindedly.
Steve chuckles, “He’s pretty good, huh, Jensen? We wanted him in our band before, tried to persuade him by telling him how much ass he would be getting. It turned out that was really pointless.”
Jared frowns at that, he’s just about to ask Steve what the hell he means by that when Jensen flops down next to him.
“We could watch a movie if you’re bored,” Jensen says, looking insecure
“No, it’s alright,” Jared says and Jensen walks back to where Chris is sitting, picking up his guitar.
***
It’s one hour past dinner time when they finally leave. Jared feels restless from sitting and doing nothing the whole time. Also he’s hungry. Hell, he can hear his own stomach grumble.
“Dude,” Apparently so can Jensen from the way Jensen is looking at him.
“What! I’m hungry,” he says, holding his hands up.
Jensen smirks at him, “It’s a good thing I ordered pizza like half an hour ago, huh?”
Jared stares at the other man in amazement, “God, you’re awesome.”
Jensen just shrugs as the doorbell rings.
“I wasn’t sure if you what you wanted so I got the Meat Lovers and the Quattro Fromage so you can pick and I’ll eat the other,” Jensen says as he puts the pizzas down on the coffee table.
“How about we both eat half each?”
Jensen shrugs, sitting down eating his pizza quietly. It’s funny seeing how different Jensen was right now. With Chris he was just so relaxed and almost cheerful, completely at ease. Now Jared could see tension creeping back into his posture.
“Are you alright?” Jared asks.
“Yeah, man, just hoping to get lucky tonight. You putting out now that I bought you dinner?” he says, smirking.
Jared frowns, shaking his head slowly. For one moment he just wished that Jensen would be with him like he was with Chris, completely letting his guard down.
“Too bad,” Jensen mutters, looking down at his pizza.
“I might if you teach me how to play guitar.”
Jensen looks up at him, questioning, then nods, “Sure.”
Jared practically inhales his pizza and when he’s finishing his last piece Jensen is looking at him strangely.
“Sorry, was hungry,” he says, looking at Jensen through his bangs.
Jensen nods, shoving the rest of his own pizza aside and offering it to Jared who turns it down.
“I’m going to go to my room, maybe study a bit,” Jensen says, moving to get up.
Jared grabs his arm, stopping him from going.
“You promised,” he starts.
Jensen shakes his head, “I know I did but…”
“Come on, I thought you liked hanging out with me.”
Jared knows he’s whining. He just wants to understand why Jensen couldn’t see him as a friend. They could fuck and be friends right? He hated the fact that Jensen apparently didn’t even want to try.
“Jay,” Jensen says like it pains him and Jared pulls his arm making the other man fall on top of him.
He kisses Jensen slow and soft, “What’s the easiest song you can teach me?” he breathes against Jensen’s lips.
Jensen shivers, “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star?”
“Something cool, man,” Jared says before kissing Jensen again, just to see if he can make him shiver again. He can.
“Fade to Black,” Jensen says before leaning back down to kiss Jared again.
Jared liked this, imagined that Chris never got to see this side of Jensen. His hands find Jensen’s back pulling the other man closer to him.
“Teach me that and I’ll put out,” he whispers against Jensen’s ear before biting his lobe.
***
Jensen sighs in frustration as he tries to show Jared just how to play the first notes of ‘Twinkle Twinkle Little Star’, like he has been doing for the past half hour. He tried to teach Jared another song, a cooler one like Jared had asked but Jared appeared to be tone deaf.
“I don’t think this is working,” Jared says after a while.
Jensen nods, taking his guitar away from Jared, silently apologizing to the instrument for letting it be misused like that.
“I just wish I could sing like you do,” Jared says, pouting.
“Well, maybe you have other talents.” Jensen tries to soothe him.
Jared smiles at him and Jensen grins back playing with his guitar a little. He watches as Jared walks away to the kitchen. He had a great day today hanging around with Jared and he wasn’t even the one who initiated it. The kid wouldn’t ask him to hang out all day if it was just about sex, right?
Jensen feels something shift behind him and Jared puts his legs on either side of Jensen’s body.
“I just love it when you sing,” Jared says against the back of Jensen’s neck.
Jensen smiles softly, adding words to the tunes he’s playing. Jared shifts back, pulling Jensen with him. Jensen goes without a fight, leaning his body against Jared’s. Jared softly kisses his neck.
“Your voice is so sexy.”
Jensen just closes his eyes playing and singing softly until Jared takes away his guitar and puts it on the ground. Jensen turns his head and they kiss. They make out like that for a while, Jared’s hands roaming over Jensen’s body as they do so. When they finally pull apart they’re both breathing harshly.
“Jeff could be home any minute,” Jared whispers, nuzzling behind Jensen’s ear, “We should move; he can’t find us like this.”
Jensen reluctantly moves away from Jared’s body, “I should really study a bit.”
Jared pouts again so Jensen leans in for one last kiss.
***
Jensen has given himself a headache from studying so much by the time Jeff gets home. He’s a bit pissed off that his best friend came home late because that means that he could have spent more time with Jared if he’d known beforehand. He finally goes to bed after he’s been sitting there and staring at a blank page for about half an hour.
When he’s finally drifting to sleep his bedroom door opens slowly and a body crawls into his bed. He shifts away, turning to see who it is.
“It’s me,” Jared whispers as Jensen is half turned towards him.
Jensen lies on his back, letting out a sigh, “What do you want? I’m trying to sleep.”
“I couldn’t sleep,” Jared answers, laying his head on Jensen’s shoulder.
“Come on, man. I’m half asleep and I’m not in the mood, so no night-time orgasm for you,” Jensen says, shifting a little.
“Shut up, can I sleep here?”
“What are you… like five?” Jensen asks but doesn’t push him away.
They fall asleep like that, curled up around each other.
***
When Jensen wakes the next day Jared is laying half on top of him, breathing steadily. Jensen thinks that he should feel uncomfortable because he usually does when someone sleeps with him. But with Jared he kind of liked it. Jensen feels stupid for not noticing it before but he must really be in love with the kid.
There is a knock on the door and before Jensen can move or say anything Mac comes bursting through the door. Jensen tries to sit up and pull the cover over Jared at the same time, almost knocking the other man out of the bed in the process.
“What the fuck are….? “Jared says, then he sees Mac standing in the room with a smirk on her face.
“Mac, listen,” Jensen starts but he has no idea how he is going to explain this one.
“Sorry about that,” Mac says, “just wanted to ask if you wanted to go out for breakfast, Jare,” then she turns around and walks out of the room, closing the door behind her.
Jared turns to Jensen, eyes huge with shock, “What the hell just happened?” he asks.
Jensen shrugs, “You were here, man. I have no idea.”
He gets out of bed and starts dressing, “but I guess we’re going out for breakfast with Mac?”
“No, seriously Jensen, why didn’t she freak out?”
Jensen turns around annoyed, “How the hell would I know? She’s your best friend.”
He realizes when he is out of the room that he might have overreacted a bit. But he didn’t want Mac to meddle in this whole thing. It was bad enough that he was in love, although he needed to reconsider that because of the way Jared was last night, maybe he needed to change his thinking.
“Are you coming with us?” Mackenzie asks when he enters the kitchen.
He is busying himself going through the cupboards: he doesn’t even know what he’s looking for.
“Aren’t you angry?” he asks, talking into one of the cupboards.
“No,” she says and he turns around to look at her, “I’m happy that you’ve finally found someone.”
“It’s not like that, Mac,” Jensen says, shifting uncomfortably.
Mackenzie looks at him, eyebrows raised, waiting for him to explain. Jensen doesn’t want to explain how this thing between him and Jared works. Hell, he doesn’t even know how the thing works. It was all pretty clear until he fell in love with him. Now he was overthinking everything the other man did, hoping that he might feel the same. This had been a lot easier when it was just sex. He considers lying and telling Mac that it is just about the sex, as far as he knows it is for Jared. But he knows that she wouldn’t believe him.
“It’s,” Jensen starts, “complicated.”
“How’s that?” Mac asks and Jensen knows that she isn’t going to let this go.
If he isn’t going to give her an answer she will ask Jared. He’d much rather have her hear his version of things.
“It’s started out as just sex,” and that is all Jensen is willing to say about this.
Luckily that’s all he gets to say about it because at that moment Jared enters the kitchen. Jensen shoots Mackenzie one last look telling her to shut up before turning his attention to Jared.
“So are we going or what?” he asks, ignoring Jensen.
“Yeah okay,” Mac says, grabbing Jensen’s hand, “Jensen’s coming with us,” she says, giving Jared a look that Jensen knows all too well. It’s her ‘don’t fuck with me’ look. Jensen has been on the receiving end of that look one too many times.
“It’s okay,” Jensen says, “I can stay home. I understand if you guys want some time together to talk or something.”
Jared shakes his head, “No, it’s alright.”
Mackenzie smirks at him before moving towards the door, leaving the two of them alone in the kitchen.
“Look, I’m sorry,” Jared says, “I shouldn’t have reacted that way. I was just surprised Mac wasn’t angry or surprised but her being who she is….?” he shrugs.
Jensen does the same before following Mackenzie out of the kitchen, seeing her talking to Jeff.
“It’s going to be the four of us,” she announces.
Jensen shrugs, he didn’t really care right now.
***
Breakfast goes by uneventfully. Jensen does feel a bit strange in the beginning with the talk he and Mackenzie just had, but eventually he relaxes and they talk about school, friends and their home. They agree to go out again that night and Jensen is amazed at how close the four of them have actually become.
They go to a karaoke bar that night.
“No, really Jensen, you won’t believe it till you hear him,” Mac says, “Jared’s got the worst singing voice in the world.”
Jensen snorts, not really believing her. Mackenzie had a habit of exaggerating. Then he looks at Jared who just ducks his head, blushing.
“No, really,” Jeff chimes in, “It makes cats cry and dogs run away yelping, Jen.”
“Alright you guys, enough with all the teasing,” Jensen says, pulling Jared closer to him, “we can’t all be great.”
“Like you,” Jared mumbles before pulling away from his hug.
Jensen feels a little bad because he has a great singing voice and he knows it. No reason for fake modesty. Jared didn’t sound bitter about it anyway, just maybe a bit sad. Jensen shrugged it off. He just wanted to have fun tonight.
“Come on man, you’re gonna have ten guys on every arm when you start singing,” Jeff says, nudging Jared.
Jared glares at his brother and Jensen sighs. He wasn’t planning on hooking up with anyone tonight. Well, maybe with Jared but that’s another story.
Jeff and Mackenzie walk inside, laughing. Jensen looks at Jared, waiting for the other man to pass him. Jared just looks at him with dark eyes and a gentle smile on his face.
“Are you gonna sing for me tonight, Jensen?” Jared asks softly.
Jensen shivers as he feels Jared’s breath against his ear. He closes his eyes for a moment, breathing deeply. When he opens his eyes he’s blown away by the intensity of Jared’s gaze. Jared’s hazel eyes are full of lust and warmth and it’s all Jensen can do not to jump him right then and there.
“You want me to?” he asks not knowing what he should think of this.
He doesn’t know if he’s reading Jared right or if he’s just willing things into existence.
“I like it when you sing,” Jared says, before slipping past Jensen into the bar.
Jensen follows him, feeling unsettled. When he sits down next to Jared at the table Mackenzie and Jeff picked his little sister gives him a knowing look. Jensen just shrugs it off; he doesn’t need Mackenzie to tell him that he’s screwed.
A couple of beers later the stage is empty and Jensen feels just buzzed enough to get on it and sing. He takes the guitar that is standing in the corner and moves to the mike.
“Hi guys, this song isn’t really on the list but I’m going to sing it anyway,” Jensen says and for a moment he wonders if he should mention who he’s singing it for but that would give away too much so he decides against it.
“It’s called ‘More than I deserve’.”
Jensen heart is pounding in his ears when he gets off stage and walks back to their table. Both Jeff and Jared pat him on the back, congratulating him on the awesome song. Mackenzie just gives him a sad look and a beer. At least one of those two he could use.
***
They all have their turn after that, their big finale is Jared singing with Jeff ‘We are Family’. They were right. Jared couldn’t carry a tune if his life depended on it, but Jeff isn’t any better. When the song is done Jared almost runs off the stage to hide his face in Jensen’s neck.
“That was so embarrassing,” Jared mumbles.
Jensen laughs, patting his head, “Come on, Jay. You’ll live.”
He misses Jared’s warmth when the other man pulls away to drink his beer. Jensen feels himself blushing at that realization and looks around to see if anyone noticed. Mackenzie is looking at him again but other than that, no-one’s seen it.
Jared sticks by Jensen’s side most of the night, leaning into his touches and whispering things in his ear. By the end of the night Jensen is almost euphoric, he’s had a really good time with his friends and he’s missed that. Seeing how busy school was he’s hardly had time to see his best friend or his sister for that matter. He was still a bit amazed how well he got along with her now that they lived together again but everything was going great.
Which is why when he comes back from a bathroom break and sees Jared kissing another guy he’s taken aback. He forgets where he is for a moment and just stares as Jared leans over the guy and whispers something in his ear.
“Never thought he would go for twinks but there you have it,” Jeff says as he hands Jensen a beer.
Jensen automatically takes it, feeling an unknown sensation rise in his chest. He knew that he was hoping for too much. After all, Jared had promised him he wouldn’t fall in love but with the way things were going tonight he couldn’t help but hope.
“God, it looks like he might eat the guy’s face,” Jeff comments.
Jensen looks as Jared is kissing the guy passionately. The guy is short, shorter that Mackenzie even and has bleached hair. He looks more than a little effeminate and in Jensen’s eyes is an obvious bottom. Jensen didn’t think that Jared would go for guys like that, but it seemed he was wrong.
“Wasn’t he supposed to be dating that Greg guy?” Jeff asks.
“Jensen, can you take me home?” Mackenzie asks, pulling on his arm.
Jensen has to tear his eyes away from Jared and the other guy to look at her. He doesn’t really register the look on her face and leads her out of the bar without another word.
***
Jared is actually having a good time at the bar, then when Jensen sings that song Jared imagined for one moment it was for him. It throws him so much he jumps on the first guy he sees; one that has been trying to get Jared’s attention all night. He isn’t really Jared’s type but Jared doesn’t care about that, anyway. Jared doesn’t go home with the guy, he doesn’t know what’s stopping him but he just can’t. When he arrives home he’s greeted by Jensen who pushes him against the wall as soon as he closes the door.
“You like bottoms now, do you?” Jensen grunts angrily as he pushes Jared harder against the wall.
“Jen, what the hell?” Jared asks, trying to struggle away from his grip but failing.
It’s kind of a turn-on that Jensen can just hold him there. If Jared really wanted he could get away but not without hurting Jensen and he didn’t want to do that.
“That guy, an obvious bottom. That’s what you’re into?” Jensen growls again.
“What, no! Well, I don’t know, never did that, remember?” Jared says.
“How would I know? You’re out with a different guy every week.”
“I never did anything with any of them, Jen!”
Jensen lets go, taking two steps back from Jared but Jared follows him, pushing into his space.
“What’s gotten into you, Jen?” he asks.
“You want to top?” Jensen asks, his eyes unsure.
“Jen,” Jared says, pulling the other man close, “I don’t want to if you’re not willing.”
That’s the truth. Jared has been curious about it. Wondered what it would be like to be buried deep in Jensen’s tight heat. But he knew he didn’t do that, didn’t want that, so he just let it go.
“Well, I did promise to show you everything,” Jensen says, pulling Jared against him again.
“Jen, you don’t have to.”
Jensen kisses him deeply, hands on Jared’s face as he slowly pulls back, “It’s okay,” he whispers, “I want to.”
There is something in his voice that makes Jared’s heart jump and heat twist in his belly. He pulls Jensen closer, kissing him softly as they move to his room.
“I know you haven’t done this before. I’m going to try and make it so good for you,” Jared whispers as he pushes Jensen on to the bed.
He slowly undresses Jensen, kissing every part of exposed skin, softly sucking as he makes his way down.
“Jay,” Jensen moans, his hands finding Jared’s hair as Jared pulls down his jeans.
Jared looks up to find Jensen looking at him with bright-green eyes. He can see that Jensen is afraid.
“It’s okay, babe, let me take care of you,” he says and he feels Jensen shiver before he lies back down.
He works off the rest of Jensen’s clothes and leans back, looking at the other man lying naked in front of him. He moans low in his throat when Jensen reaches out for him. He strips off his own clothes as fast as he can, not breaking eye contact with Jensen as he does.
“God, Jay,” Jensen says when Jared crawls on top of him.
Jared kisses him, “You’re so hot, Jensen,” he says, caressing Jensen’s cheek.
He kisses his way down Jensen’s body again, stopping to look up when he reaches Jensen’s cock. Jensen’s eyes are shut and he has a blissed-out expression on his face.
“God, Jensen, you don’t even know, do you?” he whispers against Jensen’s thigh before taking the other man’s cock into his mouth, sucking softly on the head.
He swirls his tongue around it, closing his eyes, enjoying the taste. Jared loved having Jensen under him like this. He feels a shiver go up his spine when he thinks about what he’s about to do. He sucks in his whole cock, bobbing his head up and down a couple of times before moving lower.
He blows gently against Jensen’s hole; he had his doubts about doing this. But Jensen seemed to like doing it to him and Jared wanted to make this as good for Jensen as he could. Jensen hands land in his hair and Jared looks up. Jensen’s eyes are soft when he stares at Jared, softly stroking his hair.
“You don’t have to,” Jensen says, his voice rough, “There’s lube in the nightstand you can just…..”
Jared closes his eyes and licks out Jensen as his whole body spasms. Jared moans, pushing his tongue inside of Jensen, tasting the other man. It’s weird and a little gross but it’s worth it if it’s making Jensen squirm and moan under him.
“Jay,” Jensen moans, almost begging as Jared pushes in his finger.
Jared slowly works his way up to three fingers, adding lube on the second finger. He keeps licking around his fingers dipping his tongue inside every now and then.
“Jay, please,” Jensen begs.
Jared makes his way up Jensen’s body, his cock hard against Jensen’s ass. Jensen is slick with lube and spit as Jared braces himself above Jensen, looking down at the other man. Jensen’s head is turned to the side, deliberately not looking at Jared.
“Jen babe, look at me.”
Jensen slowly turns to look at him and Jared swallows thickly at the softness in his eyes. He lines himself up and slowly pushes inside, his eyes holding Jensen’s the whole time. He tells himself he’s watching for any signs of discomfort but the truth is it keeps him grounded.
“God! Jay!”
Jared freezes, buried deep inside of Jensen, “Are you okay?” he asks, softly stroking Jensen’s face.
Jensen swallows, leaning into the touch and nods. Jared starts moving slowly, pulling out of Jensen a little before pushing back in. Jared’s body is shaking with the effort of taking things slow, but Jensen is so tight around him he doubts he could go faster without hurting Jensen.
It feels amazing, being this close to Jensen, seeing his eyes change as Jared hits the other man’s prostate with each stroke. Jared grins before kissing Jensen softly
“That’s it, babe,” Jared says.
Jensen grips his shoulder, whining, his eyes almost closed. Jared kisses him again.
“Harder Jay, I need more. Please, baby,” Jensen begs, head rolling from side to side in frustration, “Please.”
“Look at me, Jen,” Jared begs and Jensen’s eyes fly open.
Jared starts moving faster, stroking Jensen’s cock in time with his movements. Jensen caresses his face, pulling him down to kiss him. Jensen tenses beneath him and Jared feels him come all over his hand. Jared can’t control himself anymore, pushing into Jensen a couple of times before coming deep inside him.
He collapses on top of Jensen, breathing hard into his neck, Jensen lazily stroking his back.
“God! That was…….,” Jensen says after a while.
Jared looks up and kisses him again, “I know,” stroking his thumb over Jensen’s bottom lip, “I know.”
Chapter 9