I woke up at 3:30 this morning, filled with despair. At the same time, my step-father was breathing his last. I couldn't be sure of when it was going to happen, he'd moved into hospice care just a week ago, a few days after I visited him in the hospital, back when he was fighting off an infection and we were all still hoping the chemo had worked ( Read more... )

I've got a new LARP starting up tomorrow and I'm all nerves about it. Not because the signs point to failure, but because they point to success. Previous LARPs I've run, I've often had to try and stir up excitement, get people interested in the world in some way. This time, there's a veritable cacophony of interest from chunks of the player base ( Read more... )

So, I'm two sessions away from wrapping a two year long Changeling: the Lost LARP and I'm contemplating what to do next. On the one hand, I'm not interested in diving immediately into another project. I will at least take a few months off, some of which would be prepping the next project ( Read more... )

Based on my previous status, I felt obliged to list the previous books of my life. Before age 5, there's not much narrative ( Read more... )

I am ready for 2013 to be done. It's been a year of middles, things that have gotten started but not yet resolved, things that are in progress, but nothing that is completed. I feel in some ways as if it is a year of nothing but middles.
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Back to school again tomorrow. I sincerely hope this is the last year that I have to say that. I have two more semesters to get through and they feel like wading through molasses. Until the point where I've finished the degree, every librarian job application will feel like a pipe dream and I really want a real job. I am so sick of being ( Read more... )

Originally posted by drydem at post
wow.

years from now, if it comes up, remind me I almost didn't go.

I'm still not together. I don't know how long it's supposed to be until one is back together, I get the sense that you get a while before everyone expects you to be hunky dory after losing a parent, but I pride myself on resiliency and the ability to get back up after being knocked down. It's why I have a phoenix tattooed on my back. But I kind ( Read more... )

one of the hardest things is that I don't understand what a trajectory towards death really looks like. Is it getting worse? better? approaching the conclusion?

So, I'm in Philly for 10 days. it's probable(though uncertain) that in these 10 days, my stepmother will die ( Read more... )