It's over this time I Just feel it inside. The hardest and most weired part is that my heart doesn't want to believe it. My head and my heart are at war right now. Which in turn prevents me from feeling the loss. I can't cry. I even tried to make myself cry last night and nothing comes out. Occasionally I feel as if my heart is trying to believe/ ( Read more... )

Today was an absolutely beautiful day. The sun was so warm and comforting it almost felt like seeing an old friend after years of seperation. On campus I saw two ants fighting over a piece of food. I heard the birds singing to me. While driving home I noticed that the grass was a blinding green. All this beauty around me yet still I feel so ugly ( Read more... )

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But [s]he had been in love once, that [s]he knew. Once and only once, and a long time ago. And it had changed [her] forever. Perfect love did that to a person, and this had been perfect. *~*The Notebook.

I bought The Notebook last night, the novel not the movie... although I do need that too. At this crossroad of my life i totally relate to Noah ( Read more... )

And sometimes in the moments right before sleep came, [s]he wondered if [s]he was destined to be alone forever.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ( Read more... )

( Sexual Soul Mates?!?!?! )

I had my follow up today with the doctor. Everthing is fine. I will be fine. I'm slowly but surely getting through the emotional stuff ( Read more... )

It's been a week and i'm still bleeding. The doctor told me it's possible that i'll bleed for up to six weeks. i've been really depressed lately. Mainly because of what i'm going through, but more because there was almost no pain involved. i feel even more guilty that i didn't have to experience pain. i mean i killed my baby. That can't be denide. ( Read more... )