this thing is a relic at this point. its a series of inaccurate accounts from the past 5 or 6 years of my life. but going without writing in here for the past two years has been the right choice. some things are better left undocumented. my memories fail me constantly. never as clear as they once were, and at some point some things are forgotten ( Read more... )

its okay to leave out the details of the dissolution of our personal relationship. its okay to play the victim and gain sympathy from others. its even alright for you to hate me for what I've done because a lie is always a lie no matter how you tell it, and even when you dont say anything at all. this shit is only okay because I know exactly how ( Read more... )

I am going to start documenting my life again on this thing. but I am starting a new journal.

I need to make it still so I'll tell people to add it when I make it.

and the first entry is going to be soooo long.

in the computer lab in one of the art buildings at RIT. I should be working on a paper probably. I hate thinking I'm not good enough for this but it becomes increasingly evident the longer I am here. I liked thinking I was good at art. I thoroughly enjoyed my complacency which I now see as mediocrity no matter how much praise I get for my art or ( Read more... )

!nicole and I got jobs at Plato's Closet. soooo come visit us sometime and get sweet clothes for cheapsies. 
things are going good.
I miss emily. 
we're going to be visiting her in a couple weeks though and thats gonna be awesome
uhhh ecass' grad party was the bomb so if you werent there you missed out
thats all for nowwwwwwww

I come home in 11 days. fuck yeah.
This trip has had its ups and downs.
I will write about all those later.
I went surfing a few days ago with Kelley and Tiffany. (my cousins ex girlfriend and her best friend) We went to table rock at laguna and it was sweet. The board was a little big for me but I somehow managed to catch like 9 or 10 waves and it ( Read more... )

my cousin's phone alarm is going off and has been for the past 5 minutes and yet I'm too lazy to go upstairs and shut it off for him. He's passed the fuck out. I work at Coldstone Creamery now. I had to pay $26 for my uniform. gayyy. I need to make money to buy shit not spend it on a uniform for the job. what else is going on here...I wrote about ( Read more... )

I almost drowned in the ocean yesterday, and I am not exaggerating. I was boogieboarding and after a few waves I gave up and handed it over to my cousin Ian. So I thought I'd try straight up body surfing the waves. Yeah. not such a good idea. The current was so strong that I'd dive into a wave and itd suck me farther out. It also didnt help that I ( Read more... )

So I got a job as a babysitter for this lady who lives down the street from my aunt. I'll be dog sitting for her too. so thats sweet.
I applied to 4 other places and FINALLY turned in the applications today even though my aunt said she'd take me to do that about 4 days ago.
I am having a good time. the weather is sick. On the negative side..shit ill ( Read more... )

months are nothing to me. every day I get to spend with you is amazing. I will take the months as they come; they will fly by just as they have been. and the years I will glady welcome with a smile. you keep me going and get me through the good and the bad. you put a smile on my face when I want to cry. you are incredible. I love you always, ( Read more... )