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i have no idea what the fuck is wrong with me lately.
i feel like i have to force myself to do everything. to do anything.
school is feeling like a dead end. im completely unfocused.
i cant make myself do any work.
my parents and brother are in new mexico because my other grandfather died.
ive been laying in bed all day watching bad movies.
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so. apparently chamillionare is not slang for a rich person. its a rapper. why am i an idiot?

today i got to hang out with a golden lion tamarin.

animals > people.
a lot of the time.

i wish school was over with. im hitting the very depressed,
cant go on part of the semester. less than a month, less than a month....

so i just sent an email to mr clary asking if he might consider writing my letter of recommendation for my internships. I really should have started working on this sooner. The apps are due next week. I suck at putting things off. right now im just going to get everything together and pray that he says yes and can rock it out in time. and i think i ( Read more... )

this is the most amazing thing. i will never give up my dream.

today i did a photoshoot for baltimore magazines bride magazine. for hair.
my picture may or may not end up in it but it doesnt matter cause i had fun.

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right now i am very aware of the need to take things one day at a time.
to stop being petty and to appreciate.
to forgive and try to start over.
to love because i want to not because i have to.
and i feel ashamed that it would take this happening for me to do it.