You (I’m sure inadvertently) showed me a favorite song of mine in a time
Of silence. Do you know that?

I've been writing here for 17 years now. Time has flown by so fast, yet so much has happened. I still remember the girl I was in 2007, posting via dial up ( Read more... )

I feel like I've made a big turn-around ( Read more... )

I know I'm not perfect, but I want someone close to call me perfect. I know I am trying my hardest. But I feel this may be too much to be asked for? I can't say. I always try my hardest. It's just how I was raised. I want to prove my abuser wrong.

I do not know what to do. There are things that I do that I feel are perfect. Then actions that develop from my actions. And I feel like I've done the opposite of what has been expected of me, though at the time I felt I did no wrong. Is this a reaction of what I did? Is this a reflection of myself? I must do better. I had thought I was doing the ( Read more... )

I love you. I have loved you. I could never tell you. If there was ever something that you've felt, it's long gone now. You've moved on, and you shower them with love right in front of me. There is no point. There is just defeat and foolishness.

Do you dream of me? I dream of you

Don’t romanticize everything

Everything changed in 2020. Why did you have me watch that? Will I be asking myself that question on my death bed? Will I ever know? Have I blown it out of proportion for 3 years? Does it even matter. Why do you have to give me that gentle loving stare?

It’s not my fault. I’ve been faulting myself for so long. Forever. Not everything is my fault. I’m not the only one who can learn and grow, and it’s not up to me to micro manage someone else’s path.