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I do not know what to do. There are things that I do that I feel are perfect. Then actions that develop from my actions. And I feel like I've done the opposite of what has been expected of me, though at the time I felt I did no wrong. Is this a reaction of what I did? Is this a reflection of myself? I must do better. I had thought I was doing the right thing, but it's like I'm gaslighting myself. Have I ever done anything correctly, up to your standards? Because I'm feeling like bottom of the barrel pickings. I guess I deserve this.