I can't find anything else that helps either.... Thats why its such a strong addiction ... Its just how we learn to cope, what else are we supposed to do? .... I cant offer any real advice ... but I'm always here if you need to talk .... please know that you are not alone in this struggle ...
as dreaminofdeath said, you certainly are not alone in your struggle. i think its a really positive thing that you can recognise that you might need help for this. in your eyes, what is it you want? to reaslise why you do what you do? to find alternative solutions? just looking to see if i can help you more than just leaving you a little comment is all ^.^ i undestand about not being able to talk to family, that isnt an option for me either. im here if you want to talk about things, no matter how small. message or comment anytime
Thanks for your comment. What I really want is to deal like a normal person with negative situations. When times are bad I just instantly want to take it out on myself, because physical pain is so much easier to endure than emotional pain. I do know, however, that I will regret it, and then the thoughts come spiralling down again and let me slip back into another depression. I recognize when I have these moments, but I don't really know what to do against them. That sucks alot and it's certainly not helping my self-esteem.
Talking to family about this issue is just one of the hardest things to do. You don't want to hurt them, but at the same time it feels bad because you know they's want you to trust them and talk about it. But when your Mum thinks you're still cutting when your youngest scar is over two years old... then it just stops there =/
I know you feel like it's a good thing now, but you know how hard it was to stop. I don't want you to have to go through that again. :( try keeping yourself busy and finding someone GOOD to talk to. I wish I had more/better advice, but I struggle too and it's hard
Yes, I found that keeping myself busy and inviting friends over is actually taking my mind off of it. I have to keep the long-term stuff in mind, because I don't want to end up like a Granny with saggy scars or anything xD
Struggling is a good thing. It shows that at least you're trying =)
I first started cutting at age 12. At some point I managed to stop and didn't cut for years until I was in exactly the same situation as yours. I moved to a new city in a new country to start my masters degree - a long way away from my family and friends. My girlfriend of two years dumped me and money was an increasingly difficult area. After so long I stared picking up a knife again. Everything was out of my control and I didn't know what else to do
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i think its a really positive thing that you can recognise that you might need help for this. in your eyes, what is it you want? to reaslise why you do what you do? to find alternative solutions? just looking to see if i can help you more than just leaving you a little comment is all ^.^
i undestand about not being able to talk to family, that isnt an option for me either. im here if you want to talk about things, no matter how small. message or comment anytime
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What I really want is to deal like a normal person with negative situations. When times are bad I just instantly want to take it out on myself, because physical pain is so much easier to endure than emotional pain. I do know, however, that I will regret it, and then the thoughts come spiralling down again and let me slip back into another depression. I recognize when I have these moments, but I don't really know what to do against them. That sucks alot and it's certainly not helping my self-esteem.
Talking to family about this issue is just one of the hardest things to do. You don't want to hurt them, but at the same time it feels bad because you know they's want you to trust them and talk about it.
But when your Mum thinks you're still cutting when your youngest scar is over two years old... then it just stops there =/
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try keeping yourself busy and finding someone GOOD to talk to.
I wish I had more/better advice, but I struggle too and it's hard
Stay strong <3
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Struggling is a good thing. It shows that at least you're trying =)
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