I wanna die right now. My arm hurts, my friends are mad at me, my life is falling apart right now. I'm sittin here at my computer in class cryin my fuckin eyes out. I'm so fuckin scared. i'm gonna do somethin if nothin good happens very soon. I'm gonna...well...well i know somethin bad is gonna happen to me if nothin good happens...

Well, my life has officialy ended today...

Tara, i'm sorry ok? I didn't wanna tell you the way i did. I wanted to tell you face to face so you can see it...i'm sorry...at first i didn't wanna tell you at all...but i knew i could trust you...so i told you...the way i did...please don't be mad...i did it again yesterday...Tara listen, i'm tryin to ( Read more... )

Well, today is my birthday...but it kinda sux...i already started off with a bad day. I don't know what's up every year. All of my good days happen either after or before my birthday. Today's gotta be one of the worst day's i've had so far.

Let's see, I walked around the neighborhood to hand out flyers or whatever, something for school. Later, i ( Read more... )

I am so ready to die rite now i'm not even kiddin. I'm tired of havin everyone mad at me, i'm tired of havin psycho dreams, i'm tired of assholes sayin they're my friends then back stabbin me, i'm tired of it all. I cried for hours yesterday becuz i was so miserable. Tara, I tried to call u like 3 or 4 times yesterday, but you werent home. i was ( Read more... )

Earlier today, i found out something i've never known or thought about me... I never noticed at first, but...yea.

Tara, i actually got to see you for the first time in a long while. Even though i only saw you for about 5 minutes or somethin like that. Good times...good times...i think...

I had a psycho dream a few night ago, i was crying so bad ( Read more... )

I dont know what the hell to do anymore...everyone is just bein a bitch today. I'm so fuckin stressed out...i dont know what to do...

this girl in my class iz gunna break it off wit one of my friends to go out wit the cutter, i have tons of work to do, and to top it all of...i dunno...shit...

This girl is cryin cuz i wont go wit her...i just cant ( Read more... )

i had a feelin somethin bad was gonna happen 2day. I dont really know how or why, but since i've been depressed and all, i kinda know when bad things are gonna happen. Kinda freaks me out.

This pic or whatever that says: and i find it kinda funny and i find it kinda sad the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had...sad to say that's ( Read more... )

Well, today is...actually goin by pretty good! i didnt think it was goin good at first, but i guess i was wrong. Track practice really really sux tho, i cant jump 4 ft 5in anymore...(i'm in high jump)... I'm waay too short...i hate being short. oh well, i'm still fast...wait no braggin....oh well.

Frist track meet tomorrow is gonna suck. it's at 9: ( Read more... )