Haha I just read my old LJ for the first time in years. A long time ago my parents found out my LJ name, think my brother found it and gave it to them. So I wrote alot of bullshit in it to make them think i was good, also pretended like I was gay just to fuck with them, forgot about that LJ,check it out if you can, the name was What_a_Burnout. I'm ( Read more... )

I Haven't updated in a long time, let's see whats new...Samantha and I broke up after a year together, so that kind of sucks, but oh well I guess. Despite dropping out of high school, I'm still in college. I'm going to Georgia Highlands (Floyd), taking all my classes at Southern Poly. I finally got a car so I'm driving once again. I stopped smoking ( Read more... )

Conversation with Pdowd-misurably happy

Misurably Happy1: spic
NuthinT0L0se: lol cool pdowd
Misurably Happy1: do something
Misurably Happy1: panzy
NuthinT0L0se: think you fried your brain from all that oregano you smoked back in the day, probably shit out your brains from all those ex lax you took too
Misurably Happy1 signed off at 5:56:44 PM.

I'm sitting here staring at empty pill bottles, wondering what it's like not to have to rely on medications to balance myself out. I like to think i don't need them, that i'm not completely fucked up, but after i've been off of them for a while, i realise why i'm on them in the first place. I hate myself. I hate my thoughts. Why do i have them? I ( Read more... )

talked to my counselor today.. yah no chance of me graduating this year, so im getting my ged and goin to a technical school. High school just wasn't for me...

I had sex in the back of a limo last night... it was awesome.

I've fucked everything up again. I can feel myself spiraling downward. If things don't get better soon i don't know whats gonna happen to me.

parents kicked me out again, life sucks, im a fuckup, same ol' same ol'.i dunno what im gonna do to get my shit together... what can i do, fuck.

what good are meds when you have no parents, no one to talk to, and nothing... i seriously dont know what to do right now, my parents threw away all my shit and they literally hate me. my dad doesnt talk to me anymore and my mom hasn't said one thing to me besides yell and bitch at me. i don't know how much more i can take.i never thought id find ( Read more... )

I had to leave school today because I felt like shit. I'm getting sick... yay! I don't think Ms. Williams really hates me anymore. I've started to do all my work, and I've been doing really well in her class recently. I have to make sure I pass that class. I'm already going to have to take a semester of night school next year before I can graduate ( Read more... )