I am just....

Feb 06, 2006 17:05

so.
fucking.
tired.
of.
being.
alone.

and all the rest of it. )

father, memories, depression

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mirist February 6 2006, 22:17:04 UTC
Um Muse, you are allowed to be depressed an grieve. It's what people do.

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dj_muse February 6 2006, 22:41:51 UTC
yeah, you're right - that's another one of my lovely qualities - holding myself to standards I would NEVER impose on any other person in the world. :)

Crying alone is just so...sordid, you know?

Want to fix me up with some brooding musician type who's good in the sack? I can make a 3-day weekend of any weekend (fri sat sun) and stay over at a hotel or something....or you could take me partying. :)

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drgeorge February 6 2006, 22:54:41 UTC
Agreed. In fact it is a normal response!
Muse, you are in my thoughts.

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dj_muse February 6 2006, 22:58:10 UTC
Thank you, sir. :)

I guess I've just got more fodder for poems now, eh?

Hope all is going well with your production. Be sure to keep us updated.

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isisoisis February 7 2006, 00:55:46 UTC
normal to go a little nuts when a parent dies and al lthe lies burn off like so much soot...

It will be better after time... but now is the time of off the edgeness.

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dj_muse February 7 2006, 03:26:49 UTC
Much stress. Dealing with old, nasty secrets that were kept in dark corners is never good. Especially when it means you missed a chance to know someone who should have been such a big part of your life.

Waiting for them to burn off - perhaps someday, hopefully soon.

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Dante' & I send our love straengeling February 7 2006, 22:50:25 UTC
and all manner of warm fuzzies... life can indeed be bleak, and we wish we could be there to help you weather it. You are one of a kind, never cease to rock the hell out. Peas...(just not for dinner)

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Re: Dante' & I send our love dj_muse February 7 2006, 22:56:45 UTC
Get me a gig in your town this summer. I'm inheriting an RV and have enough space to take my gear. Hell, rent a generator and we can have a party out in the woods.

I miss you two sooooo much. You're right on the way to Memphis, too. *hugs*

Hope things are going well for you. Much love.

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sassenach1970 February 9 2006, 13:17:07 UTC
***HUG!***

Crying may not feel good, it may feel like the opposite, but I still believe that those of us who can cry have it better than those who can't..... You are a strong and powerful soul.... be well, take care, if you ever need to talk, call me.... As another divorced woman I understand.... ***HUG!*** -C

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dj_muse February 9 2006, 14:30:04 UTC
You are the best.

Crying makes me feel so drained, but it's necessary for me. I'm beginning to realize that I need to reach out and communicate when *I* need help, and it makes all the difference.

I'm getting better, a little at a time. *hug*

Shakti sometime soon? *crossing fingers*

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Greetings sassenach1970 February 10 2006, 12:17:36 UTC
hey there ( ... )

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