Journal...

I'm going to have to say goodbye to you. I need to start opening up to those I love, instead of keeping myself and my thoughts locked away on paper. I can't rely on you anymore. I can do this on my own, I need to do this on my own. It's time that I grew up and faced what I feel out loud and in the ears of others.

Goodbye.

I was okay earlier. I was good, not good, but okay good. I nailed my midterm, and I felt strong. But, then, I realized I had no one to share my goodness with. And then all I felt was empty. It's funny how much one day can change everything. He hasn't called me, once. He didn't call to say goodnight. That's the first time in over a year. ( Read more... )

The sky's falling, I swear it is ( Read more... )

Ahhh!! I don't know what to do. I don't know what I can say to make any of this better. Shit, I know I fucked up. I learned what I definately don't want ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD!! This weekend was unbelievable. Seriously amazing. More than amazing. So, I went to Arizona to see Dave ( Read more... )

I went shopping today. Lately I've been so good about when I go out "shopping" I pick out just one thing or so. But today, I just didn't want to go home, and I wanted to pick out something new to wear to Phoenix. So... I shopped. I spent $90 bucks, which may not sound like a whole heck of a lot.... but, for little 'ol broke me, it is ( Read more... )

Dave and I talked this all through last night, even know my sobbing made everything a little difficult ( Read more... )

I HATE being angry. It has to be the worst thing ever because it takes so much for me to actually get to that point that when I do... I get really hurt and upset that someone could get me to that point ( Read more... )

I guess every rose has its thorn ( Read more... )

I went to a movie in Union City last night with Adam and his "friend," Gerardo. Besides the fact that I was exausted (8 hours of sleep total for the two prior nights), I couldn't stand his friend! I don't see what Adam sees in him, besides the fact that he's gay ( Read more... )