disappointment. story of my fucking life.

i was kindly rejected from teach for america.

and now, i'm stuck watching ethan and hannah until like 9. i really want a drink.

why can't anything work out for me?

where would i be without pirates of the caribbean and jason statham? lonely and sad i suppose.

so. i found out two of my favorite people on this earth have done meth, and one of them loves coke (not -a-cola). this is depressing as fuck ( Read more... )

will it ever end?

Goddamn i need to move and try out a new location. and go on a real date. both would be nice.

fuck it, i just wish i could smoke to chill out.

FUCK you you bitch!! don't fucking call me and tell me i'm an idiot and caused this accident. fuck you. you get your fat ass down to that building and use that machine if it's "not a complicated machine". then why was some other girl doing EXACTLY the same thing i did when it happened, and like 3 people run over to her to tell her to stop? huh? ( Read more... )

so. today, i will experience dragoncon for the first time. should be interesting to say the least.

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to those of you who pray:

please keep the ayers' family in your prayers. their son jon was killed in afghanistan today. he's 24.

i grew up with him at church, and i love his family. please keep them in your prayers.

3 meals consisting of sushi, 2 days. too much perhaps?

i seem to have fallen into a tunnel of tequila, late nights, and excessiveness.

normally, i'd feel ashamed and bad about what i'm doing. and yet, i don't. so, perhaps it's not as bad as i think it is. who knows. i'm having as much fun as i can, and that's all i need right now.