Holiday blahs?

[divapixie25]

So, it seems like this time every year... shortly before I go home.... I get a little paranoid about my relationships. I would like to blame it on a failed relationship that ended for good on Christmas Eve over the phone but really.... this many years later I have to ask what's my excuse

Comments

[daireen]

Five years later, I still have those feelings with Justin. It's not quite as (justifiably) seasonal as yours, and to a point I wonder if it's just the manic depression, but I think I can safely say any relationship has its fluctuations. If the relationship is healthy, they're minimal as long as the lines of communication are open.

I guess I see it like this: If you can't talk to Lee in a rational way about how you are feeling, and expect him to respond in a rational way, then the relationship needs work anyway. And rational isn't necessarily Vulcan-like logic. It's perfectly rational to have a complete meltdown when, say, your pet gets run over by a car. :P

[divapixie25]

I've been trying to encourage that kind of stay in date but.... lately the exaughstion has been such that... well, he falls asleep. And then I get panicky about being unattractive, boring, commonplace, etc..... adding to my already jumping issues with having to go home for Christmas to a full house of people whom all have their own agends to carry out.... I hate the holidays.
*sigh*
But thank you for the compassion. And I have mentioned it to him... he's alright with it and I asked if I could be held for a while later on so I could just cry. He said that was fine.