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Faith
Such a simple word. Monosyllabic and common. Like "love", like "hope", and "freedom". Yet so... complicated and complifying in its experience.
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Vocation Direction
Month #8 in Austin Texas. I've got a wonderful companion, a job that pays for groceries & the rent, a home to call my own, and some cash cushion in the bank so I can afford to take care of small emergencies or attend to general maintenance concerns within a timely manner. The work I do now however is breeding a complacent misery in my soul and I ( Read more... ) -
Reading the Cards
Faith, religion, and spirituality are a curious thing for me. I don't go in for the conventional pomp and ritual of most organised religions. Heck, I feel out of place at small gatherings. But I am not a pure agnostic~atheist. Every so often I'll feel moved to "read the cards", whether for myself or for others. Called perhaps, even though I ( Read more... ) -
Pressure Relief
Have I mentioned that I'm involved with a fucking sweet and charming guy right now? I ended up having a bit of a breakdown Friday and he comforted me the way I needed. Since then I've made good progress on the Mural, passed the initial interview stage with this one job, and got another installment from the Mural client. I can afford both gas and ( Read more... ) -
Fumes
Gas, pantry, and bank accounts all sitting on empty. I wonder if all the coffee I've been drinking lately is such a good idea but it really, really isn't that much is it? About one 20-ozer per day, water for everything else. And the appetite-suppressing aspect of it isn't entirely unwelcomed at this point.
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That Old Familiar Feeling
For me today feels like one of those "calm before the calm before the storm" kinda days. Suiting metaphor since Austin's been getting a fair bit of rain lately?
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Responsibility
Dear Diary,
STDs suck and I hate informing people who might be at risk because of me!
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The Better Part of Valour
I just spent a fair hour looking into articles about serodivergent couples and typing a letter to J____ about my fears and concerns. I've chosen to not send this as it's more a cathartic writing exercise at the moment, 'cause I feel at this time it's a level of insecurity I can manage, and that I don't want to schlep that shit onto him at this ( Read more... )