i used to cry, sometimes daily, because all i wanted to do was nurse rose. i just wanted to be able to pop her on the boob and have her be happy. but she wasn't having any of that. so i pumped and gave her bottles ( Read more... )

i have put off writing this story for an incredibly long time. ruby is almost five months old!! once you get to the end, you'll realize why. this will be uncensored and pretty unedited (who has time for that shit ( Read more... )

I woke up at eight today. I rolled Rose over and nursed her because I wanted to get an early start on today. It's rainy and grey out, which means Rose will usually sleep in. My plan was to nurse her and wake her up. So I nursed her and she flopped around the bed for a while (she'll sit up and then fall back down cuddling into the blankets/me for ( Read more... )

wow, how reassuring. /end sarcasm ( Read more... )

being a mom IS the most underrated job. Rose is driving me crazy lately. I just feel like if I could have a day to re-group, things would be so much better. this is when I'm missing having family around. I can't imagine how much better of a mental state I would be in if I could leave her at grandmas for 10 hours. I could get so much done around the ( Read more... )

i was looking through a price list that theresa sent me about hospital stays for births. and its...laughable! Why the fuck would you want to pay a bunch of fucks a ton of money to do...what exactly? i'm not judging, i try really hard not to at least...but i cannot understand why anyone wants to have a baby in a hospital! except for the "fear factor ( Read more... )

HOLY FUCK! we've got 8500 in our bank account! hahahaha. that's awesome. it's all accounted for already, so that part kind of sucks. but yaaaaayyy monies! we are going to buy a king sized bed from ikea this weekend so that ray and i can actually sleep together again :) he says rose and i take up too much room so he's been sleeping in the guest ( Read more... )

i never knew i could be so bored. i'm doing a "pump-in" where I pump for at least five minutes every single hour to try to get my supply up. I'm searching through peoples pictures on facebook, i've read every single possible thread in my co-op community, myspace is fucking gay as always. IM SOOO BORED! hah ( Read more... )

im sick. in massive pain right now. i'm having a hard time being a mom and wife while being sick. I stopped taking all of my medicines/supplements and im sure THATS taking a toll on me too ( Read more... )

i realized tonight that my house looks exactly like those peoples houses who i don't like going over. there are crumbs on the counter, on the stove. the upstairs bathroom hasn't been vacuumed since before i left for michigan (over a month). the same goes for the upstairs living room...ya know, the place where rose gets cheerios all over the floor ( ( Read more... )