This is the first year we get to see actual patients-from babies who can barely open their eyes to elderly men and women who can barely see anymore-on a regular basis. This is what I signed up for. A lifetime of this and so much more. But only two months in and I am already so tired. Extremely grateful and humbled, but so, so tired.

Those blue and yellow flowers
were not bright enough,
but they were made with love
-though not nearly as much as what my mother
had for you.

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To save, to heal, to touch, to love. Tonight reminds me why I am doing this. Tonight makes me want to engrave it on my soul.

I tore myself open far too quickly, and now, I must tear myself away.

this is more than butterflies.
you make pterosaurs come back to life.

unsettlement never was the most comfortable blanket, 2014 march 28.and yet, i let it wrap around me, almost to the point of suffocation. i'd like to think it's for a lack of anything better. the warmth of happiness, of a hug, of a hand to hold-i don't know if i've already lost it or never actually found it or am simply incapable of feeling it, but ( Read more... )

Every breath I take
is an apology
for my existence.

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I feel like I should come up with an exhaustive list of reasons why people would not want to and should not have me as a friend.

No one likes to be treated like they are dispensable.

comes crashing down on me(Sometimes I try to argue, to deny, to rationalize: It is they who are wrong, who lack meaning and depth and conviction. But, in actuality, I am the odd one-the odd one out of tens, hundreds, thousands, millions, billions; the odd one inside walls no one is willing to break ( Read more... )

I finally allowed myself to open my copy (well, more like one of two copies) of Overture #1, and holy universe. The art is beautiful, all detailed and spacey and galactic. The story is obviously new and slightly cryptic as of now, both concealing and revealing, but the words make the whole thing feel oh so familiar. (Dream's words, for example. ( Read more... )