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The last couple years have been full of loss. I lost my health, my father, my mother, my uncle and a grandparent. I also ended an abusive marriage. This last year has been a mental and physical struggle to get back to a baseline. Almost weekly counseling, seeing a psychiatrist to get meds figured out, working with my primary care and sooo many ( Read more... )

I am so tired of being stressed and working full time and not being able to pay my bills every damn month. I'm annoyed with every fucked up thing that has happened lately. I am in the middle of a whirlwind of suck. I can only pay rent and my car payment and the stupid loan I took out for the down payment for the truck on this check. Meaning I ( Read more... )

I just found out that the DUI that my man had missed court for before he went into rehab, is now going to cost him 3 more months lock up. So, instead of me being able to be in his arms again in 10 days... it's going to be 3 months and 10 days. I am extremely unhappy about this set of circumstances.

So she did it again, she got drunk started a fight with me and threatened once again to take the car and to move. So I just told her to come home long enough for me to get my things out of the car and then she could leave. I am tired of this fight with her. *sigh* I had to borrow a neighbors car to get to work today and I am going to be buying ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here this morning thinking about the strange twists life sometimes takes. Two months ago, I was depressed and miserable, feeling trapped in a relationship that was doing no one any good. I was being treated like I was a posession, and I absolutely hate that. No one fucking owns me. If I allow you into my life, it means you have a ( Read more... )

Well, my heart is ok! That is a big relief, now if I could just get the rest of my body to behave life would be good. Friday I get measured for a device to help my leg, so I am excited about that, to see how much water I can get rid of. I have this boy in my life... not sure where it's going to go, but it's pretty entertaining right now. I have ( Read more... )

so, I have met this guy... I'm hopeful... not afraid, hopefully it's a good thing.

I am feeling a bit like a broken doll. Like someone broke all my joints and flopped me onto a shelf, to sit and watch the world go by. I had a 4th miscarriage and was forced to live through something fairly sadistic and just wrong, especially since it was perpetuated by someone I thought loved me. How could I have been so wrong. I can't believe ( Read more... )

Well, I ended up having my gallbladder out, because the pain just got way to bad. It wasn't emptying and was dying, so it was definitely time for it to go. I have been feeling much better mentally, which is a good thing, I was really scaring myself there for a while. Work is seriously busy as I have been gone ill so much thanks to the ( Read more... )