Comments | deranged_cloud: I'm so good at socializing.

deranged_cloud

I'm so good at socializing.

Jul 07, 2013 17:10

So it's my sister's birthday. Well, technically, tomorrow is his birthday but she just decided to celebrate it today. She has her other friends and her girlfriend's officemates over and I'm here, looking the insignificant creature that I was, treated like a ghost and all. I never was good at socializing so I frigging hate this situation. If I was ( Read more... )

real life thoughts

Comments 8

luvthe_gazette July 7 2013, 10:10:35 UTC

I know how that feels ;_; But beauty doesn't have to do anything with it (besides you're beautiful). I too, get shy and awkward when I'm sourounded by a lot of people, even though most of the times I know them and they're my friends. If you just sit on a chair and sulk then no one wil want to talk to you. They'll think you're angry or something and they'll leave you alone. I used to do that too and I was always bored on these kind of events. Sometimes I wouldn't get out of the house for months, I didn't want to go clubbing and my excuse was that I wasn't a dancing person so I wouldn't have fun. Even on our school trip to Thessaloniki I stayed in the hotel instead of going clubbing like the rest of my classmates, you can't even imagine how much I regret it. On Easter though we decided to go clubbing and even though I was relactant I went too and needless to say, I had a great time :P The thing is, if you don't try to make things better, no one else will. Just try to talk to people, start with the ones you know, try to participate in ( ... )

deranged_cloud July 8 2013, 02:15:44 UTC

LOL. I never wished to be the center of attention in a party or club or in any gathering for that matter. I just want to be acknowledged. That's all I'm going to say. Thanks for the advice.,

deranged_cloud July 8 2013, 02:24:50 UTC

And sorry. That was a very rude reply. Not having a good day right now so I just typed the first thing that came in my mind. But yes, all the things you said are true and I should learn to accept those. If I don't do anything, if the efforts I exert is not enough, then I should try harder. That's all there is to it, right?

luvthe_gazette July 8 2013, 07:10:04 UTC

It's ok, I didn't mind. Sometimes replying to a comment can be pretty difficult -__-
Exactly, I really wish there was a magic device that could help us but unfortunatelly that device is called 'self'...

random_x13 July 8 2013, 11:01:42 UTC

I know the feels ( ... )

deranged_cloud July 9 2013, 00:37:56 UTC

It's complicated, isn't it? That's how I feel with family too, or basically, with groups of strangers or distant relatives. I won't really talk if other people won't initiate the conversation. LOL. Being rejected or ignored is scary and frustrating, but I did try to talk to some people there, but I know they weren't interesting in talking to me because they gave me one-word answers and some didn't even look at me. *sweatdrops*

The most frustrating thing about that is the feeling the feeling of alienation, that your wavelength is so different from theirs, that you're just too abnormal to be with them. ._.

random_x13 July 9 2013, 04:41:12 UTC

I've gotten to the point where I don't care anymore.
I expect rejection.
So
I keep to myself. In all aspects of my life.
Fun. XD

anknick July 20 2013, 12:25:46 UTC

I might be,really late in seeing this, what with my hiding in a hole until I got my Melt >__>
I completely agree that looks matter in this world. no matter how much people say that its the inner beauty that counts, heck, even Uruha says so. that is true too, but when it comes to being approached, looks play an important role.
I could not be bothered to do anything to change the,way I look, so I just avoid social gatherings. .____.