I'm so good at socializing.

[deranged_cloud]

So it's my sister's birthday. Well, technically, tomorrow is his birthday but she just decided to celebrate it today. She has her other friends and her girlfriend's officemates over and I'm here, looking the insignificant creature that I was, treated like a ghost and all. I never was good at socializing so I frigging hate this situation. If I was

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[luvthe_gazette]

I know how that feels ;_; But beauty doesn't have to do anything with it (besides you're beautiful). I too, get shy and awkward when I'm sourounded by a lot of people, even though most of the times I know them and they're my friends. If you just sit on a chair and sulk then no one wil want to talk to you. They'll think you're angry or something and they'll leave you alone. I used to do that too and I was always bored on these kind of events. Sometimes I wouldn't get out of the house for months, I didn't want to go clubbing and my excuse was that I wasn't a dancing person so I wouldn't have fun. Even on our school trip to Thessaloniki I stayed in the hotel instead of going clubbing like the rest of my classmates, you can't even imagine how much I regret it. On Easter though we decided to go clubbing and even though I was relactant I went too and needless to say, I had a great time :P The thing is, if you don't try to make things better, no one else will. Just try to talk to people, start with the ones you know, try to participate in conversations even if you don't know a lot about the subject which is being discussed and say your opinion, even if it is wrong. That way they'll see that you participate and will talk to you too. Well, don't expect them to start bombarding you with questions about your personal life, likes and dislikes etc on the same day. That wil take some time to happen :P And for the love of GACKT, don't expect to walk into a party/club/whatever and immediately be the center of attention. If that's what you're expecting, then I'm sorry, but you'll be sulking on that chair for the rest of your life. Unfortunately miracles like this don't happen so if you want a better life/time at a party/whatever don't expect anyone to do something about it if you yourself don't :/

[deranged_cloud]

LOL. I never wished to be the center of attention in a party or club or in any gathering for that matter. I just want to be acknowledged. That's all I'm going to say. Thanks for the advice.,

[deranged_cloud]

And sorry. That was a very rude reply. Not having a good day right now so I just typed the first thing that came in my mind. But yes, all the things you said are true and I should learn to accept those. If I don't do anything, if the efforts I exert is not enough, then I should try harder. That's all there is to it, right?

[luvthe_gazette]

It's ok, I didn't mind. Sometimes replying to a comment can be pretty difficult -__-
Exactly, I really wish there was a magic device that could help us but unfortunatelly that device is called 'self'...