While I stare out, these things come. Reminding me of where I'm from and what I've done to get here, but it still seems fake. Something about the whole situation screams fraud, distinct manipulation of truth to place me here and now. Where did I start the slide? When did I cease to care? Why am I here, in this room, at 5AM wondering this? Why do I ( Read more... )

So, today is going decent. No arguments, no problems. AND NO CALL FROM SCOTT telling me where his Battle of the Bands is in Rock Hill and if he's even still playing! I wanted to call Bob and get him to come, with as many people as possible, but with no call from Scott by Wednesday I descided against it. It might just piss Bob off if he killed a ( Read more... )

Been doing a little searching around, after both Bob's parents and a friend from my clan got drilled last week/2 weeks ago by identity theft, and since they both happened it's become a real crime (Aggrivated Identity Theft) but I can't find if it's retroactive or not. I guess that means it's not, but GOD would it be nice to see some dumb fuck ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I don't give enough. Almost always. I question, prod, provoke, intimidate and sometimes try to force my will on her. I know I don't mean to, but sometimes late at night I think back about the day and see just how much of an asshole I am. I wish I could stop, because I know it's only adding to her inhibitions, sexual and ( Read more... )