1. First Name: david ( Read more... )

this last weekend i escaped to great white north(barrington) which worked out pretty well. friday night i got in kind of late, set up some electronics for my step dad, and went to sleep ( Read more... )

so, i have until the 1st of july to move out of this place...then it's 17 days of living in barrington all alone and an hour away from anything except shrake and katiy ( Read more... )

it's getting harder to distinguish reality from imagination again. also, it's getting harder to dilineate my crazy reaction-emotions from the real ones that i'm supposed to feel in situations, and even harder to remember how "normal" people act ( Read more... )

so my mom thinks that me living with my aunt would be the best solution, though i can't think of a quicker way to rush me towards suicide ( Read more... )

this week hasn't been even remotely fun, and far too dramatic ( Read more... )

i hate me, i hate the way i cant deal with normal things, and how i overreact to everything else

i am an idiot

i really hate renny
this is what he decided to waste my time with today.

( fucking idiot )

alright, so an update ( Read more... )

self conscious introspection leads to many things; self realization, learning, spirtuality, doubt, etc. whenever I have the time or opportunity, i like to meditate, not lotus position, because i cant do that, but more of an idle moment with a quiet space. It's these times that i get to relax and instead of fretting over possibilities and emotions ( Read more... )